Listing Out my Creative Projects to Give You Inspiration to Work on The Things You Always Dreamed Possible … #inthistogether

It has been almost 6 weeks since my last flight….

6 WEEKS!!!

It actually feels kind of strange to be on the ground this long. When all this chaos first start I volunteered for a leave of absence. That 2 month period is quickly coming to an end. On May 8th, 2020 I got officially furloughed starting June 1st – not that I was not expecting this, I was. I knew it was going to happen but seeing it there in the email – “my services are not longer needed” due to this crazy Pandemic was a feeling I wasn’t prepared for.  I have come to the realization that very likely I wont be flying for the remainder of this year.

For me – the only way to deal with all of this stuff is to just stay kind of busy.  There are many lessons I have learned in this life and one of them is that sitting around doing nothing on unemployment is literally THE WORST THING I can do for my mental health. The problem I have been having is discipline and focus. Literally if you saw my journal, planning book, day book, bullet journal and online course note taking book – you would know that I think up more ideas than I can even handle. But executing those ideas is a whole different thing.

I know – Everything is insane right now. But I also can’t help but feel like this is a gift from the universe. A gift of time to work on anything I ever thought would be a fun creative job – while I am getting paid and have endless time. I therefore can only see this as almost wasted time if I don’t pursue these passions.

Here is a little catch up of how I am keeping myself busy while being grounded from flying but also a list of ideas of things that you could do to keep yourself busy:

  • I started making a vegan cookbook. This is a project I have been wanting to do for YEARS. I was really excited from the get go but writing out recipes is kind of boring and I definitely waiver in what kind of things I want to include. I also sometimes feel I need to test the recipe – which means a lot of the same foods for me to eat and a WHOLE lot of cooking.  I really need to invest in the equipment for the next stages of the creative process and that equals daunting. I often get lost in the idea of how I would present the book. Then I decided to needed to start posting Meatless Monday recipes to garner interest and then the entire project just got really overwhelming. When things feel overwhelming I have a tendency to quit.
  • I started an outline draft for a book I want to write and for the first time this idea seems like the winner or more so it seems like I finally figured out a way to organize my thoughts. I will continue to map that out as social isolation drags on – and soon will start my chapter breakdowns. This is going to be a long process but something that will be so validating.
  • I have committed to a few knitting projects for some friends – they are in the works but not completed. I do that while I am watching Netflix as part of my evening routine. Knitting socks is complex.
  • I have started brainstorming ideas for YouTube because for the last 5 years I have been telling people I want to do this (imagine where I would be had I just started) – I have actually tried to create videos but I rarely get the gumption to post the video for anyone to see – which I need to do if I want to get some viewers. I think it is a really cool creative platform that I want to explore more. Plus filming is fun.
  • I started the MLM experiment where I thought I would join Arbonne and actually try and make money that way – but that is just sitting there and I have a series of blog posts half started that I never finished. The thing is now I just mostly order products for myself because I quite like them and then I don’t even mention it to anyone.
  • I started a blog series called #grounded (this series that you are reading) that I have essentially not written a post in a month because I thought my days weren’t interesting enough – because lets face it – what are we all really doing at home. Pressuring myself to write posts about doing nothing all day got slightly daunting.
  • I have bought many, many random things online that I don’t actually need. And now I am wondering if I will need to return most of them.
  • I spent a lot of time in my car with a backpack, my laptop, a handful of journals and a couple of books thinking I am going to pull off some sort of creative miracle in terms of creating content but I never actually do anything but drink coffee and stare into the park  – kind of planning but not doing.
  • I have reorganized my space to try and un-stifle my creative energy. It has kind of worked.
  • I start working on a vlogging – travel videography course – still plugging away at it – one lesson every few days. It is actually why I want to start filming YouTube Videos because I can – inspiration for travel video isn’t really my top priority during social isolation times.
  • I have been to a couple webinars on artists at the Glenbow Museum which quiet frankly is really cool and I can’t wait till the gallery can open up so I can by a membership.

 

Well that is it – that is what has been keeping me busy. I feel like while I am sad that I am not flying I am really trying to use this time to work on things I always wanted to work on but never, ever, ever made time. I think it is pretty cool to have this time to really explore my creative energy. It is really exciting.

What kind of creative projects are you working on while cooped up at home?

I am absolutely looking to build my creative community so if you are doing any of the above ideas please message me so we can create together.

 

 

#grounded: a blog series [days 6-10] What is time?

Hey all you Cool Cats and Kittens – another Carol B here just checking in to see how you are all holding up?!

It Is Friday the 10th – my last blog series check in was 5 days ago. I literally have no idea where the time went. 

So much has happened this week and then also nothing at all.

This week has been a gauntlet of emotions and sometimes when that happens it really is hard to put things into words. There are moments when it feels like there isn’t really much to say – and then days where I can’t stop the chatter.  IMG_9267

Here is the thing – I work for a fairly large well known company and I am technically on a leave. Now instead of learning my fate from my company I am learning my fate while watching the news or learning from other people sending my articles. So while we are all going through similar things – my work thing is very public and lots of people not related to my company are talking about it. Today it just seems like it is a lot to take in. 

I feel like I am mentally preparing for a plan B – I can’t decide what that plan b should be. Do I go to journalism school? Do I get certified to teach in Canada? Do I plan to go and teach abroad? Do I even want to do that? Hard to plan when you don’t know what the fate of the world is going to be. 

Anyway here is 20 things week I have done this week:

  1. Successfully avoided publishing anything I wrote because I couldn’t get my thoughts sorted and organized.
  2. Cracked off the remaining 7 gel nails – my hands are looking fucking stellar.
  3. Purchased 4 containers of super colorful hair dye – still looking for gloves so I can dye my hair without dying my hands. 
  4. I just turned the heel on the sock I am knitting – pretty soon I will have a pair.
  5. Looked on the Government website at my tax forms. Did nothing with said forms.
  6. Drank coffee in a parking lot with my friend at a socially distant appropriate distance.
  7. Logged into my Arbonne site and then did nothing with it. Thought about doing things but then did nothing.
  8. Got really into Ozark – because what a crazy fucking ride that shit is.
  9. Cleaned my room, put on candles, made a mess, burned out candles
  10. Read books, meditated and did that again. 
  11. Wondered when I was going to start feeling the way other people are feeling all overwhelmed and shit.
  12. Tried on every one of my toques.
  13. Drove up to Nose Hill more than once to have coffee in my car.
  14. Drank a lot of fizz  (Honestly if no one has given you any of these to try – please let me know they are so damn good  – they are going to replace my Diet Coke addiction)
  15. Drank a lot of tea – all the tea, daily tea
  16. Been in denial about the amount of coffee I am drinking.
  17. Drank a lot of smoothies.
  18. Did some at home workouts – kickboxing, Beachbody and super long river walks.
  19. Made an appointment to get the drivers side door handle fix on my car, and the running light that burnt out months ago
  20.  …. really assessing my life – I have had time to look in and dig deep and consider so many things. Who really knows where this journey is taking me but I have all the time in the world to figure it out. 

 

That is what I have been up to the last few days #grounded. My emotions are raw. My mood is good and bad and good and bad and mostly I feel very hollowingly lonely and single. And that is just where I am at.

 

How is your week going?

#grounded: Day 2

Last night I drank.

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If you have never had this – next time you are allowed to venture out you need to pick this up in Halifax. It puts Bailey’s to shame. 

I wouldn’t say excessively but a few glasses of  red wine and then a couple rum cream/espresso vodkas …. I definitely had an Advil, and other vitamins to try and curb a hangover before bed. Because let’s face it – I don’t actually drink very often and that kind of alcohol combining is not good.

Yesterday I spent all sorts of time trying to get a morning routine sorted. Starting with an 8AM wake up time. I went old school and put together my April wall calendar of all my isolation activities on a map for success. I even went so far as to highlight and color code – then made a lose day routine of what I want my days to look like – I felt so accomplished.

This morning – that routine got washed aside for sleeping. Somethings happened but not as early as I wanted to start. What did happen was my morning coffee, and morning smoothie. Also – my writing routine – so while I am late to start at this today I am still doing the things I set out to do. Progress, Friends – not perfection!

Things I want to accomplish today:

  1. Make the most perfect carby hungover masterpiece of roasted red pepper pasta (yes, I figured out some things to do with red peppers yesterday and I even roasted 4 peppers for use today)
  2. Attend a zoom meeting
  3. Spend some time prepping for my 30 Day to Healthy Living Program
  4. Master the Phone App Application for VIP Kid – find some props for a demo lesson
  5. Walmart Mission for box dye for my hair and other supplies

What are you doing to keep busy today?

Keeping it sane.

In solidarity –

C