Acting The Part To Manifest Your Life

Some days I am just trucking along and it is like I see myself outside of my body doing things that I shouldn’t* be doing.

I tell myself I want to feel more comfortable in my skin, in my body, but I am also eating that extra bag of potato chips in my car because I was to lazy to make myself food. I stay in bed all day watching TikToks  – mindlessly scrolling through my life not caring about doing the things I could be doing to put myself into a better space.

I spend a lot of time thinking about the things that I want to do but not actually producing the things that I need to produce to do them.

Confidence. Motivation. Ambition. Drive.

Where did you go?

Is manifestation of personal greatness just an act or a role we play?

Do you ever see the vision of yourself and then all the sudden intrinsically understand why things are not working the way you want? Like you all the sudden one day understand how destructive your habits are to your sucess?

You can see yourself sitting in the fear, you can see yourself scared and not making a move? You can see yourself not the person you want to be because (although attainable) you just aren’t working for it? Like at all. Like never. Like you talk a big game about a goal but don’t actually pursue it – just talk about how you want it.

Are you scared you are going to fail?

I noticed this week that Sons of Anarchy was added into Netflix, and Friends, this is honestly one of my favourite TV shows. I have rewatched it SO MANY TIMES and as I was laying in my bed watching reruns the other night I took a pause and started to research some of the actors.

I saw a recent -ish picture of Ryan Hurst (in his Sikh turban) and Charlie Hunnam (all British and clean cut) and they were doing Kundalini yoga. It was so interesting and strange. I am binge watching them on a show where they are constantly drinking and smoking and being badass criminals – getting to know them as a character and to see them as people – in a normal life is an entirely different act. In this moment I really started thinking about how life is just an act. And you – you can create any character you want.

Can we as humans just decided we want to be something different and create it by acting the part?

Life is sometimes all about acting – How do you decide who you want to be?

In the plethora of self help book I have read they talk about the same things – creating your life and doing the things. Get up early, do the yoga, train your mind, train your body, create a path for yourself, follow through, don’t stop. Just never stop trying to achieve the dream. It is hard work, lonely work but you are worth it.

The problem with online creators and actors is that we just see the final product of one particular role. We never really see the work it takes to get to the final product and that is what my weekly epiphany was about; the behind the scenes of getting everything done – the hours of Jiujitsu to give you the body you want, the strict diets and the hard work. The discipline for success.

This week I am questioning my behind the scenes work ethic and if I am in fact doing the things I need to do to get it done.

Am I creating the part for myself where I am the leading character in my own life?

Are you?

You are the star of your show! How does the leading character act? Are you inline with that? Are you creating the ultimate dream role or are you the runner up, supporting role in your own drama?




* When I say I ‘shouldn’t’ be doing something it is a standard that I have set for myself. Obviously this is relative to you as a person and your own moral code and ethics.

Manifesting Amazing

There are a myriad of people on your life journey. In this particular instance (that of manifestation) there are two types; those that believe they can manifest things and those that don’t. I am a firm believer in the power of positive thinking, truly believing that you are worthy of something and then letting the universe just take care of the rest of it.


About two months ago – I was trying to decide if I thought moving would be the best decision for me. I put it out in the universe that I wanted to live in a certain area of the city, in a certain style of apartment, for a certain price. Yesterday, the universe delivered. I believe the universe took care of my request. I set my intention and settled for nothing less. I have noticed that being clear minded and using my intuition has been a tool that, when used properly, allows me perfectly predict or clearly know and understand things that are going to happen. It has really has been the last year or so that I truly believed in my own abilities to ask, believe and receive the things that I truly want.

So on the daily I have a reminder on my phone to just be awesome, accept abundance and just be in the moment. I remind myself to take time to really think about what I want. And to be clear with myself and the universe the things that are important to me. I spent the 10 minutes to reinforce my beliefs in myself and my abilities.

There are a lot of moments we need to be reminded to be awesome, love yourself, love what you do, create amazing things, dream big, go after your dreams, find that thing you really want to do and actually go for it and trust that you are talented. Maybe I just need these reminders but everything wonderful happens from believing you, yourself, is capable.

There are far to many people that are completely satisfied with a mediocre life which really means there is less competition for the ‘A game’. So I think it is within reason to leave the none believers to play for the mediocre prize while we all play in the bigger, more scary, yet more rewarding pool that has far less competition.

I didn’t just arrive here over night – I read books. I read the Secret, Ask and it is Given, the Vortex, You can heal your life,  I watch Abraham Hicks on YouTube. I see all the 1000’s of people that have created business’ by blogging, writing, vlogging, dj-ing – People that have created companies that run all sorts of wonderful things that they are super passionate about. There are so many creative ways to sustain yourself and live the life that you want without being confined by Monday to Friday, 9-5pm or working your ass off doing two jobs. I think if it it doesn’t feel like work you have found your happy place. I am not saying it won’t take work to get there, heck I work two jobs but I am on the path to achieving.

The key to getting more is figuring out how to make it happen. Surround yourself by people that encourage you to be a better, faster, smarter person. I work my ass off to become a better person every day, endlessly trying to be better, create an audience, I ask the universe for abundance and trust in the process, the writing, the dreaming and the acting.


What is it that you really want from this journey? from your life? You only have so many years. How are you going to get it? Why settle for nothing when you can create something?!

I would love to hear from you – are you a believer in the law of attraction, manifestation and creating your own destiny?


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What’s in a Carol?

Have you ever put your name into a search engine – just to see what kind of person you are? Or better what kind of person people perceive you to be? What comes up when people are looking at you before that job interview? What sort of social media online presence does the world see when they look you up? Are you a different person online than in real life?  The preconceived notion of you; are you who you claim to be?

I know. Things to think about.

Are you are throwing your name in Google right now.  Go on! Take a minute – see what comes up! I have been doing some research about Carol, as a thing, as a person, as people in history, as famous types – who are the Carol’s of this world?  If you look at me online what sort of information are you taking in and holding onto? Who are the other Carol’s? What are they up too?

This all started because I decided I wanted a cohesive, complete blog – and as I was searching for ideas  I found some old blogs I had written: Rantin’ C and NOTNOFUN in particular – they were like reading old journals – a window into the past of who I was and what I dreamed I would be.

Anyway, over the last few years I have absolutely searched myself, more than once. There are a few times where random things have come up …  like that one time in Vietnam in the hostel when I signed into Facebook and something weird happened. That hacked moment comes up, when I search hard enough I find some online journals and other random blogs – it wasn’t until recently that I made the connection that that sort of Google search may have cost me some jobs – which lead me to recently, finally, deleting those old ramblings. I mean what if someone read that online, reads what was happening in the life of Carol 10 years ago? That certainly is not relevant today. But you can’t expect people to know the difference. Social media is a perception, carefully crafted by the user to appear sometimes like something we are not. I don’t deny the person I was because that got me here – but that person is a shell of the person I am today.

Lifestyle design, personal branding, online content creation, leader in the minimalist to tiny life world. These are the things I am creating on this blog, the topics that I am interested in manifesting and creating as I create a new life for myself.

When I was younger I really never thought much about the person I wanted to become, the person I claimed as myself and the person that is me. I just went about my life. I floated from place to place, city to city – confused and unsure. I felt like I was always searching for the place that I would fit in. The place that would finally feel like home. That place that would let me be and create and do and be awesome. It took forever for me to realize that in all my journey’s and all my soul searching – that a lot of the best parts – I need to ABSOLUTELY create these things, create my life. I some how forgot to create the life I wanted I just thought one day it would happen.

This space, it is about my journey – my journey, in my late 30ies, where I finally figure out how to create the life I want. To finally push out all the naysayers and party poopers and create this thing that brings me so much joy. To share all this knowledge that I have picked up along the way to figure out the things that are me.

So what is it that I want you to know about me right now before we take this journey together?

I am a  blogger, talker, storyteller, writer. I am a minimalist, alternative housing enthusiast. I work hard a multiple jobs while I am trying to create my empire, and by empire I mean – I am trying to find the best way possible to highlight the beauty of smaller living to have a bigger life.

So come along on this journey with me to finally taking all that knowledge from travel and formal education and informal education, from living in a government run commune to being homeless in China and sleeping on my friends window ledge to staying with family and constantly living out of a backpack – to the final stages of what will soon be building a tiny home and sailing away into life bliss.

Whose with me on this journey?