The Cabin. Unique, Alternative Structures in Alberta. Airbnb Experience.

I grew up in a prairie city.  I wouldn’t say I know all about farming life, but I know a bit.

I got into tiny houses and alternative housing years ago when I realized that I truly wanted an unconventional life.

Then I started to get really interested in alternative structures – tiny homes, van homes, those homes that are made from tires and mud — Earthships, repurposing strange materials into housing structures like grain bins, silos and old depilated airplanes. I am just fascinated with repurposing.

So when I saw this silo/grain bin turned into a glamping oasis I had to book in for the weekend. 

I am not going to lie I acted on instinct, and I acted on emotion and I acted on trends because I knew I needed to be at one of the coolest Airbnb’s in Alberta. 

This Airbnb is exactly as the photos show. Its structure is a reclaimed grain bin that has had some repairs done and then reworked into a functional tiny home in the middle of the prairies – a silent retreat for relaxation.

In this year of not being able to really travel much internationally I have taken it opening myself up to exploring some of the lessor known places around Alberta. This led me to Mossleigh and to this reclaimed grain bin to stay for the weekend. 

This place is perfect for the solo adventurer or a couple wanting a quiet weekend away. It sleeps 3 (2 upstairs in a double and one down on a futon) but, in my opinion, more comfortably sleeps 2. 

Lee, one of the hosts, told me the story of this dented grain bin that lived on the yard for quite some time and how he had offered it to a couple of potential owners on the condition they needed to transport the bin off the property but … it never ended up happening. 

Eventually they decided to build their own oasis. 

THIS IS THE CABIN.

This is probably about as rural Alberta as I have been in years. It was about 10 minutes past the hamlet of Mossleigh. There were some gravel roads, and I am not even going to pretend me driving my 2-door city girl FIAT didn’t get lost. But according to Lee and Trish I was the only one ever to get lost trying to find the place.

Lee came and rescued me in Mossleigh. Thankfully.

I think being at the cabin just let me sit in possibility, sit in my creativity and sit in my solitude.

The bin is decked out in true country style – the way you would expect horses loving farmers to decorate and that is part of its beauty and charm and amazingness.

You are tucked away in the back corner of the property away from the house. The yard is surrounded by acres of land that are used by the family. If you are looking for quiet this is the place. There is a fairly large garden that you are welcome to dig up for eats and a wall of sunflowers giving you privacy.

When I was chilling on a blanket on the grass reading my book, I noticed a deer watching me. Probably waiting for me to leave so they could get in on the garden. 

There are 5 barns cats that roam the property, but they didn’t really approach me. The dog, Boone – it was instant love. He definitely came for snuggles and pats many times.

My favourite part of the cabin was the outdoor shower. There is nothing quite like standing naked outside with hot water sprinkling down from the shower head while the light breeze dries your skin cool to the touch. The smell of the water hitting the concrete pad under your feet is like the smell after a rain. I don’t think I have had a shower quite this amazing before in my life (except for the time I used a bathhouse in Dawson City and boiled my own hot water to pour in buckets on my head inside a sauna structure). This shower alone is definitely worth the visit.

The place is set up for the typical weekender. There is 2 burner hot plate and microwave inside, apartment sized fridge — coffee maker, dishes and all the things you need to make smores over the outdoor firepit. There is even a BBQ if that is your jam.

This was the most perfect experience for a weekend get away.

You can find this place listed on Airbnb linked here (no, not an affiliate link) 

AND

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Day 2 of Doing Things to Achieve the Dreams on my Vision Board

Day two of me doing things to actively achieve something on my vision board.

Okay random reader on WordPress – I must share that today was a beautiful day 2 on my mission to get rad.

I took the last few weeks off the gym because I really hurt my back. Like hurt my back the kind of way that it hurts to sit, stand and laydown. I have been to the chiro a few times to fix it, but I am in some pain. I did the mature thing today and stood in line with all the retirees at Shoppers and got myself a heating pad. The reason that is important is because this morning I got my ass to the gym. While kickboxing this morning I was feeling great. Throwing punches like a champ, roundhouse kicks and high intense hooks – I was a machine. 

But I am paying for it now while I lay in my bed trying to edit a YouTube video and sum up my day 2. I can hardly move around. Heat pad activated. 

Today I achieved something on my list for better health – getting my ass to the gym.

I also spent a hot minute booking myself into the physio therapist to actually figure out how to stop this back stuff from happening. Because If I am going to spend the winter repairing a van, I am going to need to be able to use my body. 

Also, while making phone calls – I GOT A TEMP JOB working at the election. (In case you are reading this, and you are not Canadian – The federal election is September 20th, 2021). So, two days of work that is not unemployment. Also – my papers came to start declaring my unemployment which is good news because … money.

I finished editing a YouTube video which you will see tomorrow. Woot!

I booked all sorts of self-care appointments, and I organized my month. 

Because I truly believe that when you self-care the shit outta you – things just are better.  You need to love yourself.

I have done so much reading on manifesting and it is crazy to me the amount of people that think they can just keep writing out their dreams and never work for them. Heck – I am living proof that that doesn’t work. You need to really believe you can achieve it. Focus on the goal and chip away at it. That is why I started this – trying to take steps in the right direction of making things come true. Instead of sitting here waiting for good things to happen I am going to make them happen.

Today was a great day of taking care of business. I am proud of myself for working on my Carol projects and not letting a sore back make me feel like it is okay to lay in bed watching serial killers on Netflix. It is so easy to get lost in the world of TV and YouTube – watching everyone else achieve the things that I want and not work on that stuff myself.

Anyway – that is all for day 2.


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MASTERING THE ART OF MAKING MY YOUTUBE BINGE WATCHING HELP WITH PERSONAL GROWTH

I’m about 6 weeks into my new job and tonight I am online searching for vacation rentals in Delray Beach, Florida.

Or maybe Boca Raton.

I’m going to walk you through how I got here. Because isolation has led me to an interesting place.

It is the last day in March 2021. It has been a year to the date that I worked my last pairing, a redeye flight to Toronto, Ontario.

I was then furloughed for 10 months before I got a hit on a job application.

About 3 months ago I got offered a job with my provincial health care organization to track positive cases and exposures related to the current pandemic. I didn’t actually start working until mid-February (about 2.5 months after my initial offer of employment). Just another added frustration in months of frustrations that have been forced upon me in the last year.

2020; what a nightmare … that continues to live on.

My Province has been fairly locked down since Christmas, so the daily cases weren’t high the first few weeks of my training.

#bless

Less cases meant more downtime at work. At first, we had to do team cases and /or were paired off to do cases. Then came heaps of extra learning about virus tracking and other pandemics. But truthfully, I also used some of that free time to cruise YouTube on the side. YouTube is a rabbit hole and that landed me on videos about venomous reptiles and hillbilly Floridan’s.

YouTube suggested this for me, and they were not wrong. Old me would have pretended not to like this type of redneck shit but I’m invested. These YouTubers are fascinating.

I digress.

I have historically not been that interested in travelling in the United States; in particular with the past government. But things change, I have changed. And if I could be boating and beer drinking and hillbillying right now — ummmmmm, sign me the fuck up.

It is hard to really sum up how much growth and development has happened for me in the last year — mostly because I have barely caught up to myself. I haven’t ever forced myself to slow down and really take a look, my life has mostly been one messy shit storm of bad decisions to the next. Fun. But doesn’t really let you dig deep and figure things out. I have never really slowed down enough to deal with any of the traumas. I just worked, and worked and fucked around knowing all this time that no one was going to fix me but myself, but I still refused to dive in. Who has time for that shit?

I just always figured things would turn out how they were supposed to but if I learned anything in the last year it is that things can blow up and your life can change at the blink of an eye. I have also learned that in order to really truly get what I want — I need to do the damn work. I just need to fucking start, get out there, and do.

Watching some of these Floridians online made me realize some things that I never really spent time focusing on before. Which when I type that sounds just damn foolish. But when you see people being genuine at their core and living their authentic self without giving a fuck — and you are in the place of growth and forging a new you — that shit hits hard.

I have been to some places. I have meet the dopest people. I have friends in all sorts of beautiful places and walks of life and I cherish those people and those friendships for exactly what they are. But when you realize you haven’t been truthful to yourself — it makes you questions the journey. I have just realized my lack of truth to myself and that years of people pleasing led me to a life wading in this grey area. What I want for myself and the judgement that others were placing on me and my ideas — that shit wasn’t lining up.

I was always so concerned that if my ideas didn’t line up with other people’s ideals I would be left to walk alone and I am tired of walking alone.

Believe it or not: I am scared. Scared of trying new things. Scared of rejection. Scared of being alone. Scared of not being alone. Scared of losing myself. Just scared.

Yes, me — someone who has lived on 4 continents is scared to try new things. I don’t ever want to appear like I can’t do something. I have a massive fear of failure and looking bad. So much so that I have pigeonholed my life to make it easy to not have to do that. I realized that I have taken on some very judgmental behaviors because of my fear. Because making fun of everything and refusing to commit to anything — lets you please everyone around you. How bizarre that I developed that mindset?

Wild.

This new development — ya, I forced on myself because 2020. It fucked me up. It fucked me up because for the first time in a long time I am at a place of growth where I realize how important it is to speak my truth, and to say no to things I do not want to do, and if that costs me friendships, those people where never friends.

Seeing youtubers just living their lonesome truths is just downright inspiring.

The pandemic has made me realize I want more and the only person that has ever stop that from happening is me, my life decisions, and my fear of standing out. But spending all this time watching people online has just made me see we are all kind of the same – floating through life trying to figure it out. It has really made me see through peoples tattoos and piercings and strange hair and made me see through people need to look and be just like what society tells them to look like. It’s made me see through all their fronts that I used to take as absolutes.

I take the opinions of others to heart. I listen to other people’s opinion and take that as the truth and that, friends, that shit fucks you up.

Being isolated for so long has forced me into dealing with mental health issues, anxiety issues, it has had me face addiction issue head on. It forced me to look at myself and my friendships and relationships in a different manner. Personal growth and development are inevitable in a time of isolation and lack of stimulation. It forces you to pay attention and to deal with yourself. As someone who has heavily leaned into narcotics in the past, the last place I wanted to end up at the end of all of this was with another round of nonstop avoidance of my life. And that people, in some moments, has been a really difficult choice.

I sat for months working through turmoil myself — until I finally found someone that I could talk to about how to show up as me today instead of the me from 10 years ago.

How to allow myself to be who I am and not who I was. How to really shut the door to a different chapter, how to clear out space for whatever adventure life brings next — and hopefully soon I will learn all the tools to stop being so scared.

I am so far removed from where I was and this down time has allowed me to crack open a vault of feelings that I never dealt with. Your girl has been reliving some heavy trauma this last year

But you know what is sexy as fuck? Dealing with your shit and working on yourself.

And today Friends — I just needed a fucking debrief.

Because if there is something I never did enough of in my life so far it is taking care of myself.

Lately it has just made me wonder how many other people are out there avoiding and not going after their dream and just kind of sliding by afraid to define who they really are —

I certainly know that this last year wasn’t just an annoyance for me but a wakeup call forcing me to redirect.

The truth is — I may not get my job back. I may have to have a new career. I may want other things now that align with the person I want to be. I may want a million other things — what I do know though is that it all starts with me.

So, friends — why did watching an eccentric dude, completely tattooed, and modified resonate with me? Because he is real. He is just insanely in love with himself and his passion.  But not in the way that you think makes someone full of themselves – just in the authentic excitement someone has, their passion that radiates through the screen. He treats his partner like a queen and that respect  – that is the kind of humans I want to align myself with. That is exactly where I need to start — that genuine love for myself. I get to figure out me again. I get a chance to have passion and adventures and really figure out the things that I like that keep my soul soaring, my cheeks hurting from smiling so much and the people I want to hug the most.

Now if you were thinking I was going to be a crazy fuck and end this post with a trip to Florida — to go see some ‘gators because personal growth. Well, you wouldn’t be wrong – it is now number one on my list for border re-openings.

I’m booking the tickets, baby, I’m ready for the ride.

Eugenia Cooney is slowly dying while the world watches and nothing is getting done about it.

The role of the influencer is certainly an interesting one. You make videos of yourself and post them online. Eventually you get a following if you are consistent and entertaining enough. The theory is that anyone can do it. There are influencers in all areas, that cover some interesting and not so interesting topics. There are influencers for everyone. Once you reach a large enough audience you can basically market anything. This is primarily how these people make money.

But what if your influence isn’t about what kind of shampoo to buy or what protein powder is best but your influence is fostering an eating disorder with young women?!

Should you be allowed to continue on?

Should you be banned?

Should be have to have warnings on your content?

Should your content be age restricted?

What is your social responsibility as someone that has influence over millions of people watching your content?

Meet Eugenia Cooney.

I want to talk about Eugenia Cooney and her content.

Eugenia is a female Youtuber in her mid 20ies. I want to say 26. She is 5’6″ and last weighed in at 86 pounds.

Let that sink in.

She is visibly incredibly thin and not in the model sexy kind of way. She is thin in the SOMEONE TAKE HER TO THE HOSPITAL kind of way. She is visibly in the throws of an eating disorder.

In a video Shane Dawson did – there was conversation about having spent time in a “treatment centre” however there was never an admittance by her that she had an eating disorder or that there was something to be worried about. (Sidenote: She actually looked really healthy and pretty good on the video after her return from treatment.)

It was truthfully pretty scary that she took to the internet as soon as she returned home instead of taking care of her health and continuing to focus on her health journey.

Recently there is a petition going around to try to get her banned from social media so that she can spend time taking care of herself. Truthfully even with almost 50 000 signatures – it is unlikely that this will make a difference in social media banning her from producing content. It is clear that all she knows as a life is social media influencer. Be it Youtube or Twitch or whatever platform, she spends all of her time making content and showing off her very slender body.

The real truth is that SHE DOES NOT WANT ANY HELP (even though she desperately needs it).

Recently there has been a lot of discussion online about the decline of Eugenias’ health. There has been a resurgence of trying to get her care and a hope that collectively the audience can get her the help she needs and to see her return to a treatment centre. Back a few years ago, Jaclyn Glen put Eugenia in a situation were she was 5150’d and was forced into treatment because of her mental health. A 5150 is a 72 hours psychiatric hold that is involuntary. Once Eugenia was detained she then ended up in treatment for 6 months.

Upon her release she ended up returning to Youtube with a documentary that was orchestrated by Shawn Dawson (with the help of Kati Morton) the video seemed well intentioned but was not put together properly. It left Eugenia to pick up where she left off on social media which inevitably caused her demise and decent back into the grips of her eating disorder.

With 2.2 Million followers she is definitely someone of influence. She is absolutely showing young girls how to be and live as an anorexic. Her cosplay content showcasing her emaciated body should come with trigger warnings and be adult only content. This girl will absolutely lose her life while the world watches.

There have been so many creators try and help her out and it never works. Any type of criticism is received with the notion that people are haters. We, the people, created a world of cancel culture. And this is no different. Eugenia simply cancels anyone that makes a comment she does not like. If some one mentions her weight negatively – she calls them haters. If someone calls her anorexic – she claims she is fine. She talks in a high pitched tone and it appears the sicker she gets the higher pitched her voice becomes.

So what is the solution?

Stop watching in her content. Stop watching. Stop enabling.

Stop supporting the demise of a young woman.

I am truly not sure what the answer should be. I wouldn’t say I am an avid supporter of Eugenia because it isn’t really my interest: cosplay, Japanese animation, characters, anime in general. Just not my vibe. But the entire world is just watching her starve herself with nothing happening. It is crazy.

The truth is addiction and eating disorders are often enabled by people in your immediate life. In order for Eugenia to change there need to be a support system. It is going to be a completely new version of what her life is now, how she lives it and what it will look like without the pressures and ideals of social media. For a woman that makes all her income from being online – that is a HUGE career move. Not only does this affect her and her life but it also affects her family and their lives. It feels doubtful to me that she is NOT financially supporting her parents. So of course they would NOT be onboard to changing her career because their life suffers.

It is kind of like when kid actors get forced into more and more productions because their parents get accustoms to the money they are bringing in. Instead of saving their children’s money they start spending it. They then are requiring their children to continue to work so they can maintain their lifestyle. Selfish if you ask me – but happens all the time.

If you feel like you want to try and help … sign the petition linked here. And stop clicking on her videos.

Thoughts?!

Setting Boundaries

If there is one thing that I find incredibly difficult it is setting boundaries with people.

Second to that is properly expressing my feelings when they are hurt.

I am a HIGHLY sensitive human.

Sensitive to the point that something that happened months ago can boil up and hurt me at an unsuspecting time. I have over the years known this about myself and mostly learned to deal with it. But on occasion it creeps in out of nowhere and I lose control.

2020 has thrown me a mind fuck of a time – I honestly didn’t really vision me being unemployed for this long. I didn’t vision me wondering what to do with my life. I also didn’t plan on setting my bar high and going after some long term dreams.

But here I am … just doing that.

In the last few weeks I have really started to feel like connecting with other humans has become increasingly difficult. I don’t know if it is the people that I have chosen as friends, my fear of making new friends, or just an overall feeling of complete social isolation … but some sort of shit is happening and it is powerful.

I have realized that I, for the most part, have been (in the past) a pretty chill human being. I am flexible wth plans and flexible with changes … or at least I thought. I guess until now. I think that because I want to have social/friend time I become too flexible to other peoples schedules and then forget about myself in the process.

2020 has made me realize that I need to be more selfish. I need to be better at sticking to my guns and doing what I want and following the lead of others and making sure I take care of myself first.

Setting this type of boundary has definitely shaken up a lot of my friendships and relationships.

When you set boundaries you change your role in friendships and relationships – you change you position and it changes the dynamic.

And it is hard.

REALLY HARD.

Very few people talk about what happens in your world when you set personal boundaries – it gets lonely.

It gets lonely because all the people that were taking advantage of you and not respecting you are now put into question.

It is really hard to stand up for yourself and see that you are worth it. Your schedule is worth it and that people that don’t respect you are not people worth having in your life.

Forging a new path, a new dream – it takes work and dedication. The same with deciding how to let people treat you. You set the bar for appropriate behaviour – you choose.

You are worth someones full attention.

You are worthy of being a priority.

You are worth you goals and dreams.

You are worth standing up for yourself and not taking any shit for anyone.

Setting boundaries and setting the pace for what I need, for me, is honestly some of the hardest things for me to do. Because when I set boundaries I feel like I lose out on things. And honestly that isn’t the truth.

When you set boundaries you don’t miss out on anything. You get everything that you need for you.

If someone doesn’t want to respect you or your boundaries – if they don’t want to treat you as human – they are not worth it.

2020 has been a great year for reflection and understanding. Setting new goals and aspirations and seeing the shifts that we are all making as we adapt to what is now the norm.

Today I challenge you to stand up for yourself and set one boundary that wasn’t there before. Loudly state something that you need that you aren’t getting because of an action you are allowing (from yourself or someone else) – see how that feels …. and grow from it.

25 Things I Miss About Being A Flight Attendant

Flying is exhausting and hard work. It can be draining and challenging and push all your buttons. It can also be super fun. I miss the lifestyle of whizzing around and being a social butterfly. There are so many amazing things about being a flight attendant – here are some of the things I miss the most.

25 Things I Miss About Flying:

  • Always going places – the constant act of getting on a plane and being in different cities and sleeping in different beds. Motion. Always going.
  • Airplane cookies. Biscoff cookies. It is both embarrassing and staggering the amount of times I have eaten cookies and pretzels for breakfast. It has been months since I indulged in such behaviour.
  • Putting on high heels and the uniform and feeling suited up and acting the part.
  • Making new road friends every few days.
  • Sunsets in Mexico.
  • Hawaii. Just all of it – beaches and sunrises and humidity and Maitai’s
  • Getting all the fun stuff from all the places: Rumcream in Halifax. Coconut granola in Hawaii. All the American vegan foods pretty much anywhere in the USA. Colliding Tides in PEI – it is so amazing to pick up all my special treats on the road and bring them home I miss all those things.
  • Hot men in uniform. There are lots of men in lots of uniforms trolling the airports. It some nice eye candy.
  • Redeye flights and working all night.
  • Hypoxic giggles from flying to many hours in such a short amount of time.
  • The passengers. The good and the bad – but always interesting.
  • The drama.
  • Getting home from Mexico and cleaning sand out of my suitcase in the middle of the winter
  • St John’s, Newfoundland. I miss you.
  • Room Parties.
  • Paydays. Actually working my butt off for a huge payday and being rewarded with all that money to freely spend how I want.
  • Hotel room coffee in bed.
  • Awesome places to take badass photos.
  • Visiting my network of friends in random cities.
  • Day drinking in the afternoon in warm places without an care in the world.
  • Exploring new places.
  • Adventures.
  • The galley of confessions. Getting to talk about real stuff with real strangers and really opening up.
  • Feeling like the world is my oyster and that I can go anywhere.
  • Feeling alive.

 

I am sure there are more things to miss about flight attendant life – I just am feeling nostalgic and missing all the things that such a fun career can bring.

Are you a furloughed flight attendant? What are you missing the most?

Listing Out my Creative Projects to Give You Inspiration to Work on The Things You Always Dreamed Possible … #inthistogether

It has been almost 6 weeks since my last flight….

6 WEEKS!!!

It actually feels kind of strange to be on the ground this long. When all this chaos first start I volunteered for a leave of absence. That 2 month period is quickly coming to an end. On May 8th, 2020 I got officially furloughed starting June 1st – not that I was not expecting this, I was. I knew it was going to happen but seeing it there in the email – “my services are not longer needed” due to this crazy Pandemic was a feeling I wasn’t prepared for.  I have come to the realization that very likely I wont be flying for the remainder of this year.

For me – the only way to deal with all of this stuff is to just stay kind of busy.  There are many lessons I have learned in this life and one of them is that sitting around doing nothing on unemployment is literally THE WORST THING I can do for my mental health. The problem I have been having is discipline and focus. Literally if you saw my journal, planning book, day book, bullet journal and online course note taking book – you would know that I think up more ideas than I can even handle. But executing those ideas is a whole different thing.

I know – Everything is insane right now. But I also can’t help but feel like this is a gift from the universe. A gift of time to work on anything I ever thought would be a fun creative job – while I am getting paid and have endless time. I therefore can only see this as almost wasted time if I don’t pursue these passions.

Here is a little catch up of how I am keeping myself busy while being grounded from flying but also a list of ideas of things that you could do to keep yourself busy:

  • I started making a vegan cookbook. This is a project I have been wanting to do for YEARS. I was really excited from the get go but writing out recipes is kind of boring and I definitely waiver in what kind of things I want to include. I also sometimes feel I need to test the recipe – which means a lot of the same foods for me to eat and a WHOLE lot of cooking.  I really need to invest in the equipment for the next stages of the creative process and that equals daunting. I often get lost in the idea of how I would present the book. Then I decided to needed to start posting Meatless Monday recipes to garner interest and then the entire project just got really overwhelming. When things feel overwhelming I have a tendency to quit.
  • I started an outline draft for a book I want to write and for the first time this idea seems like the winner or more so it seems like I finally figured out a way to organize my thoughts. I will continue to map that out as social isolation drags on – and soon will start my chapter breakdowns. This is going to be a long process but something that will be so validating.
  • I have committed to a few knitting projects for some friends – they are in the works but not completed. I do that while I am watching Netflix as part of my evening routine. Knitting socks is complex.
  • I have started brainstorming ideas for YouTube because for the last 5 years I have been telling people I want to do this (imagine where I would be had I just started) – I have actually tried to create videos but I rarely get the gumption to post the video for anyone to see – which I need to do if I want to get some viewers. I think it is a really cool creative platform that I want to explore more. Plus filming is fun.
  • I started the MLM experiment where I thought I would join Arbonne and actually try and make money that way – but that is just sitting there and I have a series of blog posts half started that I never finished. The thing is now I just mostly order products for myself because I quite like them and then I don’t even mention it to anyone.
  • I started a blog series called #grounded (this series that you are reading) that I have essentially not written a post in a month because I thought my days weren’t interesting enough – because lets face it – what are we all really doing at home. Pressuring myself to write posts about doing nothing all day got slightly daunting.
  • I have bought many, many random things online that I don’t actually need. And now I am wondering if I will need to return most of them.
  • I spent a lot of time in my car with a backpack, my laptop, a handful of journals and a couple of books thinking I am going to pull off some sort of creative miracle in terms of creating content but I never actually do anything but drink coffee and stare into the park  – kind of planning but not doing.
  • I have reorganized my space to try and un-stifle my creative energy. It has kind of worked.
  • I start working on a vlogging – travel videography course – still plugging away at it – one lesson every few days. It is actually why I want to start filming YouTube Videos because I can – inspiration for travel video isn’t really my top priority during social isolation times.
  • I have been to a couple webinars on artists at the Glenbow Museum which quiet frankly is really cool and I can’t wait till the gallery can open up so I can by a membership.

 

Well that is it – that is what has been keeping me busy. I feel like while I am sad that I am not flying I am really trying to use this time to work on things I always wanted to work on but never, ever, ever made time. I think it is pretty cool to have this time to really explore my creative energy. It is really exciting.

What kind of creative projects are you working on while cooped up at home?

I am absolutely looking to build my creative community so if you are doing any of the above ideas please message me so we can create together.

 

 

#grounded: a blog series [Day 3 &4 …]

Welcome to my new series about what I am doing now that I am grounded.
I am  1) grounded from flying,  2) feeling like I am a teenager grounded at home and not allowed to go out,  3) trying to figure out how to be spiritually and emotionally grounded.
Tune in for frequent posts about how I am dealing with it all:  #grounded: a blog series

 

I said to my roommate in recent days that we are in the endless space time continuum of nothing and I really, really meant it.

Certainly we all know it is a strange, strange time.  The unknown is crazy and very uncomfortable – the world as we know it is dramatically changing and we have no way of knowing how. What will our world look like in 3 months time, in 3 years time? …. Will we go back to things as they are? Will entire Countries collapse? Who knows?

Unsettling, right?!

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Me; thinking about stuff before writing stuff. Wondering about how my future is going to look. April 2020.

The days are trucking on and on; this cold weather here in Calgary definitely has me feeling unmotivated and blue. I go through phases of productivity and fear. I go through the gauntlet of thoughts – like I guess it is time to figure out my life. Will I find a partner? Will I find a house? Will I travel forever? Is our world reverting to olden days and we will need to start canning and pickling and gardening to survive? Will we be the same? What do we need to prepare for? It feels a little bit like if you just told me – I would just get ready and make it happen. But no one can do that – no one has the answers.

 

Is it actually making me regret things that I didn’t ever do even though I wanted to, Things like:

Why did I never take journalism?

Why did I never move to Dubai to teach?

Why haven’t I traveled India yet?

Why did I let my life be chaos for so long? Why am I so boring now? Why am I eating bags of Doritos when no one is home but eating health drinks when people see me? When did binge eating become my norm? When did I become such an emotional eater? Can I fix this?

I guess it is just to much time to think? And Lordy knows – I am a thinker. Today I took the time to turn off the laptop and watching Netflix and Youtube and started with some podcasts (change it up, right?). It led me a a journey of micro dosing psychedelics and wondering if micro dosing on mushrooms would be a good idea during this time. Then I wondered if I had any connections to do this? Then realized how much my life has changed.

I started to dive into Arbonne’s 30 days to Healthy Living. I am not entire sure my gut can handle the sheer amount of detoxing – but it had me questioning my eating beliefs. Why am I so against eating eggs but I can wolf down some (enter some strange, really bad vegan junk food here)? When did my eating get so disordered?

I pulled out some jewelry bins and realized that I have lost my identity over the years. I stopped expressing myself with clothing and scarves and jewelry. Where did my creative identity go? – I assume it left when I moved back to Alberta and systematically gained weight working so hard to get myself out of debt.

As you can see – I am all over the map – day 3 & 4 have been me really evaluating my life. like really diving in – asking millions of questions with very few answers. It is crazy how the mind works in a time of limited stimulus.  In the end, I continue to ask myself the same questions I have asked for years but then got to distracted to answer. What do I actually want? What is the vision?

Today’s plans  – there is no list. There is no expectation. There is just me – spending time writing, reflecting and trying to figure it out. Times are changing hugely. I am just trying to keep up.

What phase of isolation/quarantine are you in today? Productive? Questioning? Pensive?

#grounded: Day 1

Well it is probably going to be a hot minute before I see another sunset in Puerto Vallarta and not because it is almost the end of my Mexico flying season but because starting today  – April 1st, 2020 – I am officially on a “leave of absence” (aka voluntarily laid off) from my work. I am sure in 2 months time it will become an extended involuntary layoff.  *sad face

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I took this photo of the sunset on the last PVR I got called out for in early March 2020 – right at the beginning of the pandemic arriving in Canada.

I am already missing my East Coast summer layovers and they haven’t started.

From what I can understand about the state of the world and the state of aviation right now – it is probably going to be a long time before I fly. It is a range of emotions that I feel – sadness but also relief  … to not be flying when the safety precautions are not in place to maintain my health. It is safer for me to be at home while we ride out this COVID19 situation. I have thought about all the things that I might take the opportunity to do with all my spare time – but it is still to early for me to focus on that while I am kind of grieving the state of the world.

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I stole this image off a post on Facebook because it sums up my feelings about my work life.  No idea who the creator is but I love it.

Kicking off DAY ONE I am starting with my normal kind of normal morning/day routine where I get up and make some coffee – have a quick snack and then go back to my bed to either read or write. Sometimes both.

At around 11:30 I start to feel like I should get up, get dressed and make myself presentable for the day. Then friends – it is anyone’s guess as to what will happen. I cook most things from scratch because it is the food I have – then I bring my computer from room to room – watching YouTube about online teaching or ESL teaching in general. I research Dubai as a backup plan for the fall. I think about whether my skills have lapsed to much to start drafting again. I then think about what I want my life to look like.

I take some time in there is be extremely grateful for all the hard work I put in to make my financial situation as great as it is right now.

I often write a huge blurb about the things I want to do that I lack motivation in doing then I make some tea …. I have been drinking an excessive amount of tea. I spend a lot of time on Pinterest – planning out my next hair color as soon as I have some help doing it – be that a salon open or a talented friend. I daydream a lot about being able to write full time (even though I never publish anything after I write it) – I think about making YouTube videos. And then it is around 8PM – I retire to my room to watch something on Netflix while I chat with my friends and then around 130AM it is time for bed again.

Today’s goals:

  1. Bake some vegan double chocolate muffins
  2. Figure out how to use up 7 red peppers (because for some reason buying a bag of 8 peppers for $4.50 seemed wise the other day at the grocery store)
  3. Pull out the big wall calendar and plan out #isolationApril
  4. Get some exercise – Hit @home, Beachbody OR out for a walk
  5. Start writing Friday’s blog post in my MLM series (I didn’t forget – just the world feel apart)

I think those are attainable goals for the day …  #letsdothis

What are you guys up to in isolation today?  Do you make small daily goals to keep yourself busy?

 

Pitch Week & MLM Experiment Guidelines


 

Mother of all things holy – the pitch week has been insane.

I decided before I talked to anyone – there would need to be a set of guidelines that I had to follow. Any pitch needed to be well executed and informed; I would feel comfortable with the person I would need to be my mentor. What follows are things I really need to pay attention to before I can join any team of independent distributors and mixed in with that is a bunch of things I am committing to myself as I go forward with the project:

  •         I need to pick an MLM that I am genuinely interested in the products. It must be products that I will honestly use. It is important that it is vegan (for personal and long term business reasons)
  •         I need to commit to reading everything about the company. The good, the bad and the ugly – all the stuff. Take notes. Be informed – don’t make egregious stupid claims about products that aren’t true. (Yesterday while doing online research I listen to a girl talk about how big companies take the fat from road kill and put it in makeup and that is what you are putting on your face – this, friends, is why most people think MLM people are crazy)
  •         Track money in vs money out (keep track as visuals) – everything you spend vs everything you make. It is important to track to see how much you are making vs. losing.
  •         3-6 months. The premise is that I actually work the program. If I am making money perhaps I will continue on – Who knows where this will take me?!
  •         Find a thriving supportive upline that can help me build my “business” – I have always struggled when women have called their independent consultant business’ as there “own company” – the culture of preying on women as weak and trying to show them that success is growth is scary. But i’ll dive into that later. 
  •         I will commit to regular Friday posts to update how the project is going – how dealing with the public as a person that works for an MLM is going. Do I feel like I am putting a strain on personal relationships?
  •         Have a ‘why’ – why did I pick this particular company. What was the decision-making process? Why do you think their products are good?
  • Exit clause – can you bail? If after 3 months you are just spending money. Can you bail?
  • Actually test the products. Use them. Decide for yourself. Things that might benefit you.

 


 

With all the above in mind ….. Asking anyone that is actively trying to make money in an Multi Level Marketing company to pitch me their best pitch opened up a world of crazy that I didn’t really realize was going to evoke so many opinions and so much attitude. It has been an exhausting few days to say the least.

Multi-level marketing (MLM), also called pyramid selling, network marketing, and referral marketing, is a marketing strategy for the sale of products or services where the revenue of the MLM company is derived from a non-salaried workforce selling the company’s products/services, while the earnings of the participants are derived from a pyramid-shaped or binary compensation commission system.  – Wikipedia

 

Ladies have been coming at me. People I haven’t ever talked to online have come out of the woodwork. I learned that some of you guys love these companies and some of you fucking hate them. There have been some VERY strong opinions. It is pretty damn interesting the amount of ‘super for’ or ‘super against’ opinions that are circling around the web.

I have been curious about this kind of money making for some time. I have always inherently thought it was wrong. And I am not so certain I changed that opinion but I realized while talking to people that: a lot of women don’t love the products they are trying to push, a lot of women are angry that other women haven’t changed their products – their everyday routine to support their multi level marketing business. Women are angry that other women didn’t sign up to be a part of their business – even if the products are not aligned to then, their ethics or even if the products are possibly out of their price range. There are some women that have drank in so much of the culture they have failed to see anything aside from you not purchasing from them makes you a bad person. Friends, this is just week one. 

Before I got to far on this journey I really needed to know so many things but most important to me:  

 What are the startup costs? What is my monthly and yearly financial contribution? Can I opt out after 3 months or six months? Can I get out if I need to? 

As someone who has spent a lot of time trying to dig themselves out of a financial hole the last thing I want is to get myself on the hook for something financially that I can’t really afford. I don’t want to commit to a company for a year of spending hordes of money that I can’t get back.

So I let people pitch me in any way they wanted to – I had Amway, Young Living, Valentus, Arbonne … some were good – some where bloody awful.

Stay tuned for next Friday when we talk about which company I am choosing to get involved with and …

In the meantime – are you or have you been part of any MLM? I would love to hear from you about your experience?  Please comment below what you think about it – are you making money? Why did you get involved?