words. branding. online badassery.

The fabulous world of the big bad web is all about buying into someone else’s product. If they have something you think you need and they have caught your eye, they have sold themselves and their product.

When you see what they are selling and think: “fuck yeah, that is going to work for me?”  You see their charisma, their charm, their everything and want to be it. Then you wonder how they created all sorts of online badassery? You are hooked, line and sinker. If you are anything like me, you wonder how they crafted such genius.

I have fallen into this trap SO MANY TIMES! Buying into someones product only to have it not work for me, most of the time failing. The thing is – these things don’t work for me for a million and one reasons but the biggest one is that person, that thing, that is their brand. While I am awesome in so many ways I am not their brand and I need to figure out my own persona, my own brand and my own me. Without a confident force of self to be reckoned with I think there will be no mass following. You need to deliver your awesomeness and not try to deliver someone else success filtered through you.

  1. I honestly think I just realized that I have been trying to find success through other peoples personas. In my works, in my relationships, in my friends, in my blogging and in my drafting. I need to rip off the fear band-aid and be unapologetically me. The only way it can ever work. The raw, blunt, funny, adventurous spirit that I am. The one that likes thrift-ed band tees and Birkenstocks. That person needs to learn how awesome she is and stop trying to figure things out based on what worked for other people.

You know lots of people boast on their YouTube or blog all about all the things they are amazing at – I struggle with that … I don’t want to feel like I am boasting so I don’t tell people I worked on 4 Continents.  That is not a lie, that is the truth. I often downplay and say I volunteered in Chile instead of saying I worked with the United Nations in South America. I see all these people shout all the amazing things they have done and it made me realize that it is all in the language, the approach and not apologizing for opening up doors for yourself. It is all how you present the material. You create that image with your words.

 WORDS ARE MAGIC!

How often do you confidently write about you and say to the world FUCK YEAH – I’m awesome?!

Yesterday night I popped by my parents and in a conversation with my Dad he said something he always says to me … that I have the same disease that he has wanting to explore. The difference between me and my father is this: I think calling yourself a disease is unhealthy, it doesn’t bring your confidence up – in fact it shows how little you value one of your biggest assets! Your sense of adventure, your need to be busy and your need to accomplish things and to learn. It is not a disease to want to learn, explore and adventure. It is doing yourself some disease by not pursuing a passion and by letting yourself be told what you need to do to have a life you don’t  want.

It is really, really hard to disassociate with comments people make. For the last decade I have dealt with all sorts of people telling me how I should go about living my life. And that I need this career and this desk job life and this security and the thing is … it’s boring as fuck. I am tired as hell of working 60 hours a week, I am tired as fuck serving coffee and working with immature entitled bitches. I am tired of this life I created for myself that isn’t really getting my anywhere. Holidays damn near financially break me. I am tired all the time. Life isn’t that fun and I am a goddamn hermit. What the fuck even is that?

All I have wanted to do for years is have my own thing, my own business, my own income and by golly I am going to fucking make it happen …. With all my potty mouthed eloquence.

So it is all how you market yourself, isn’t it?Are you marketing yourself a tired, washed up, low energy zombie and are you ready to face the big bad world on your own?

What words are you?

The Badlands.

20170521_195923Alberta had dinosaurs. 75 million years ago. Think about that for a minute. The province of Alberta … in Canada … used to be a roaming place for dinosaurs. I don’t actually know what interests me more – the thought of 75 million years ago or dinosaurs. It is mind boggling if you really consider that right here, there was once dinosaurs. It is hard to believe such a thing was even possible. I certainly never think of our land being that old. I mean Canada wasn’t confederated until 150 years ago and I always think of our landmass (Canada) developing around then but really – this chunk of land was once owned by some pretty rad land animals.

I have traveled in Drumheller, Alberta before and I knew that the badlands were bomb and I was in the mood for a little adventure.

Less than 24 hours in Drumheller isnt much time. We cruised out to the badlands Saturday afternoon; once it cooled down a but we headed over to the Rosedale suspension bridge. It is a mimic of an old coal mining bridge. The bridge is suspended over the Red Deer River – the current is trucking along quickly if you are brave enough to take a look down while crossing the bridge suspended over the river.  Once you hit the other side – there are few formations to climb to get a beautiful view of the land formations and the landscape surrounding the area.

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Then we headed another 7 kms down the hoodoo trail to explore the rare hoodoos. These are by far the coolest formation that I have some across on the prairies. They  look like giant mushrooms made out of soil. The are essentially an endangered species (if land can be that) – they are eroding at a rapid rate which is crazy but a part of nature. If you haven’t seen the Hoodoos yet – it is worth the trip.

We capped the day with a few beers at a local Irish pub (I have been really into the radler lately ) and then headed to our little motel in the badlands for the night.

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If I am being honest – it has been a long ass time since I got out and enjoyed life and got to explore some rad stuff. Thankfully it is just the begging of summer and there are lots and lots of Alberta gold mines to enjoy.

My summer plan is to stay on the trail and stay dirty.

If you have any cool travel suggestions for Alberta (interior BC or Saskatchewan) let me know below so I can try and check it out.

xoxo,

C

 

 

What does your Perfect work day look like?

You know when you feel the anxiety of change – you are unsure of how, where or when but something is coming. I have been feeling that lately. I am not sure what, where, when or how but there is a thing and I think it is coming at me. My intuition never fails.

The shift of new management in my Starbucks has me reconsidering my side hustle. A stronger than ever desire to work on myself, my weight loss and not working myself to death has me thinking about a lot of things.

Mostly, I want more Carol time.

Anyway you might remember I bought a copy of Jenny Blake’s Pivot awhile back (I was super excited). I haven’t actually had time to get into it very far because I have been busy just trying to tackle my life. I do that sometimes- spend a crap tonne on books and then it takes me years to get to them because I am busy watching True Blood or some others reruns – but mostly it just means I am too fucking tired to really read.

I wanted to do this book as a workbook like it is; actually do the steps. So I thought it would be fun to take you along on my manifestation of creating a career pivot.

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Stage one is PLANT. Calibrating yourself.

It really is the question that we all forget to ask ourselves: If you could do anything in a day (money is no object) what would you do? How would you spend your time? What are you most excited about? What are you most proud of? What do you want more of? less of?  (Pivot pg 42)

Have you ever really sat down and thought about these questions? I mean we all sort of work because it is what we are suppose to do to support our lives. We go there and do the things we need to do so that we can bring home the money to support our lives.  I work a lot. I always have. More recently because I live where it is super expensive. But if I am being honest as soon as I have down time at work … I am doing this. I am writing. I am planning. I am trying to figure out what I can do for a business to make money online. I am looking for a way out. I am looking to spend less time making money for other people and more time making money for myself. I have tired lots and lots of things. Eventually something will pan out – but my point is – if I could do anything I would probably write. Or take photos. Spend my day exploring. Traveling. Loving. Reading. Getting more knowledge.

I am excited when I have readers, when people interact with me. I am excited when I budget and it works. I am excited when I write and people love it. I am most excited to create. I love cooking – meal prepping vegan food; trying new recipes.

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When I think about what I love to do and what I actually do  – they are clearly different. I am grateful I have time to factor writing into my day. I am thankful I don’t need to be creative on demand – but I am absolutely most excited about making things. So my question to myself is – how will I make what I enjoy doing into the great American dream – my job?

I can feel the winds of change. Somethings is brewing. Change is in the air. And here we are heading full force into change. What inspires you? What is your most favorite thing to do?

Comment below about career, making money and landing dream jobs – are you working yours? What are you doing to get there?

xoxo,

C

 

 

Money Diaries. #1

Sometimes money runs through my fingers like sand in a sieve … you know how it goes – it’s like all your shoes wear out in the same month. You need new (or new to you) clothing and everything (perceptions, glasses, shirts, bras – life stuff) all at the same impossible time. It is incredible frustrating. I read all sorts of how to handle your money but sometimes I think those articles are meant for people that maintain a certain level of affluence. I think it is called the latte something something

It has been awhile since we talked about money. The reality for me is that money sucks. Actually gracefully accepting my place in the financial scale makes it easier for me to figure out what I need to do to move forward. As you might know I took a few weeks off of Starbucks in April because I needed a break. I needed to push pause for a minute and catch my breath; align my expectations of myself and figure out what I want to do next.

Taking time off means less money – my budget has gone to shit. I stopped tracking my money. It is the same concept as weight watchers – you gotta track your bites or you don’t lose the weight. I need to track my spending or shit goes crazy.  And, Friends, shit has gone crazy. I need to plan my spending or things get out of control right quick. Some days I wonder if I will ever see the end to my student loan nightmare. The truth is I got tired of it and got distracted because it’s hard to build a life on no dollars.

So in financial news aka pending expenses: I got hit with an amount owing on my income tax. A couple of traffic violations and I need to update my address on my license and insurance. My wisdom teeth will be costing anything my insurance doesn’t cover. I need new glasses, contacts and an eye exam and last but not least I am getting another laser treatment this week on my tattoo. I am mega excited for getting a new tattoo for my birthday this coming December that will cover the spot I am lasering. So I will not make any of my targets for paying off my Alberta student loan any time soon. Gah. I step forward – 3 steps back. I have been good with my no buy with the exceptions of things I really needed.

My 3 big lessons are:

  1. Budget like a motherfucker.
  2. Track your Gawddamn Spending.
  3. Take Control.

In other news that affects my finances. I am trying to brush up on my English grammar because I am thinking about taking my CELTA so I can teach English in Canada.  And then replace Starbucks with teaching. This will cost money but likely make me more money in the long run (also allow me to consider a bit of a Bali teaching situation that has been on the bucket list for years). I am looking for higher paying full time jobs – albeit not that hard. August is my two year work-aversary … so perfect timing. Change is in the air but sadly this time not in my hair.

Anyway – the reason I write this out is in the hopes that you will take a step back  from your financial situation and realize that we all struggle with finances. It’s expensive as fuck to live in the Western world. People have debt and the truth is – none of it is good and the only way out is to plan it out, pay it off and show yourself some love. I have thought about selling everything and moving abroad again but I’m not there yet.

So with that friends, happy saving, happy spending and thankfully it is almost nice enough for picnics and strolls in the parks.

Good vibes,

C

Self Help: Are We Really That Broken?

Why do we let the world tell us that we need to fix ourselves?

I confess that lately I have been obsessed with Mark Manson. I know I come with a ball of baggage in my life. Don’t we all?  I mean social media kind of makes us all think that everyone else is perfect and then we start comparing and then start thinking we suck.  But the truth is – nobody’s life is as cool as it looks on Facebook.  But did we need a book to tell us that?

I love self help reads. Sometimes I get so lost in my head I need to see things in a different light. I really spent a long time avoiding my life. And in the last 4 years I have been working a lot at unraveling my inner self. Sometimes doing the work makes me right sad because I realize how unintentionally horrible I was to someone or I realize how many pedestals I handed to people for no reason or how much blame I put on other people because I am bored, sad, frustrated, solo, tired etc.

Lately I realized that reading most of these books teach you about finding your self worth. I mean maybe they don’t all say that but they all force you to look within – see what maybe wasn’t right in front of you and try to force you into fixing it. I have been doing a lot of that lately. I wonder though – does self help good intention force you into a negative space before you even begin.  I just wonder if things are as bad as we think they are? Or do we force ourselves to see flaws by trying to fix ourselves. Maybe we were never that broken.

“You’ll learn, as you get older, that rules are made to be broken. Be bold enough to live life on your terms, and never, ever apologize for it. Go against the grain, refuse to conform, take the road less traveled instead of the well-beaten path. Laugh in the face of adversity, and leap before you look. Dance as though EVERYBODY is watching. March to the beat of your own drummer. And stubbornly refuse to fit in.”
Mandy Hale, The Single Woman: Life, Love, and a Dash of Sass

 

You know – people endlessly ask me about teaching English abroad. It is honestly something I get asked about with a pretty constant frequency even though I haven’t lived abroad is 5 years. Teaching life is pretty fun. However inasmuch as you make fast friends – there is something amazing about have friends you don’t need to share you back story with. While getting to explore all the time is fucking amazing – constantly worrying about contracts and resigning or new jobs and new Cities and what you are going to do with your stuff – annoying. Fast fashion in a new Country and trying to fit in and cramming that shit into a backpack to start all over again. Draining your finances and savings (never mind wrecking havoc on your minimalist journey!).  There is always another side. People want to hear all about the adventures but never really consider the other stuff.

“Happiness cannot be traveled to, owned, earned, worn or consumed. Happiness is the spiritual experience of living every minute with love, grace, and gratitude. let it affect you or not.”

I often think about having my own business. I dream of being able to come and go as I please. I dream of traveling when I want  – Freedom to me means waking up and getting to do whatever I want each day. But sometimes I wonder if I am chasing an illusion. You know – it has been shoved down our throats that the path to success lies at the end of a successful homegrown company; that to achieve all sorts of freedom you need to break away for the 9-5 because 9-5 sucks.  There are endless books, webinars and people telling you that this is the way to happiness and success. This entire business is making you buy into self improvement.

But do we need it?

Lately I have been thinking about all these things I acquired to make my life sustainable in Edmonton. I have been thinking about the “stuff” needed to make myself normal. And I wonder if once you have opened your mind to other realities – can you bring yourself back to this reality – societies normal. I feel like I have been told I need to hang on to or attain all these things to find my own happiness but I am not sure if I will find the gold at the end of your rainbow – mine might point in another direction.

I mean am I walking advertisement for an overrated millennial? Or a younger hippie ? I don’t know. I mean all of us are just trying to figure out this crazy thing called life. And while we don’t think we aren’t influenced by the things we watch and the things we read. We are. We are told by the media what the way to success should be. We are spoon fed it and sometimes I hear myself giving the same media driving response because that is just they way things are supposed to be. (And yes – this even counts if you are reading or watching antimedia – you are still  been spoon fed societal opinions)  My new found adventure with Mark Manson is happening because it is the first book I have read in awhile that has said ’ you know what – sometime life gives you shit. But how are you going to deal with that?’ and the reality is – how the fuck are we going to deal with it?

So is self help just an industry like the rest – tell you you’re broken and you can fix yourself and these 5 books? Maybe. Maybe it is just our own fault for not questioning why we want things.

Do you read Self help? Are you on a journey to become better? How are you doing that?

Leave me some love below!

xoxo,

C

 

 

 

If I do this, then I get to do that …

I have finally gone and done it. I booked my appointment for the full extraction of my last two wisdom teeth. On May 29th I will finally get to tick this big thing off my list of health issues I need to deal with before I can think about my next move. Actually it isn’t that big of a list but the things on the list are big-ish. It is sort of like a Health and Wellness list.

When I initially moved to Edmonton I had also been considering a return to Seoul, South Korea. I was in a bind and I needed steady, consistent income to pull myself out of a bit of a financial pickle. I gave myself 6 weeks to find work in Alberta and if that didn’t happen teaching was going to happen. South Korea has always been my back up plan. By the grace of the universe I found work in Edmonton and have been working tirelessly to get myself back on track.  The thing is – I am back on track and now I am ticking the things of the Health and Wellness list.

Truth be told -I have had an irrational fear of getting my wisdom teeth out. I have no idea why I started living in fear but here we are in my late 30ies doing that fear thing that is so irrational. Sometimes I feel like I lacked the years in growing up and all the sudden I need to do all of this shit so fucking quickly. Maybe that just comes with being in your late 30ies. Sometimes I feel sad that I was so lost for so long; the wake up smack didn’t hit me till recently in a way I never saw coming. Now I am just questioning and judging and trying to figure myself out so I can figure out relationships and friendships. I digress.

There are a couple of other things on this list that I have started that aren’t complete. My lease is up in April of next year … so I have some investigating, planning and figuring out to do. But all of that is on the back burner while I actually just do some living, loving and some gawd damn self care.

My new questions in life are … how will this impact my financial well being and how will this affect my emotional and health well being? The answer is simple friends –  getting my teeth out will likely stop my mouth from hurting, jaw pain, headaches and such, my over all oral hygiene will be better and now that I have dental coverage this should not impact my  wallet too much – in fact doing it now will likely save me money later.

Are you on a journey of self improvement? What is on your “if I do this , then I get to do that” list?

Lets talk about it below!

xoxo, C

 

 

The bag of burritos I needed.

Truth: Even though I had a fairly great job situation in Calgary post SAIT I quit my job and moved to Montreal. I transferred with Starbucks to get me started and took my boho looking, dreadlock sporting self to the city of liberty and freedom and decided it was about time I make a life for myself.  My friend told me there were lots of jobs, and even though I hadn’t actually found anything online and had no response I packed my stuff, shipped my entire life and decided to make a go of it.

Truth: Montreal was the hardest 6 months of my life.

Truth: I struggled with my pay dropping to a quarter of what I was making in Calgary.  I struggled with transferring into a store that instantly and blatantly hated me because I had dreadlocks among other stupid reasons (sidenote: I later actually made some amazing friends and connections at that Starbucks – Monkland represent!). I was already feeling self conscious and that just wreaked havoc on my emotions and my state of mind. I struggled with sleeping on the hardwood floor for 6 months. My self worth was trapped in material possessions.  When I finally made the decision to leave Montreal my options were limited. I didn’t have any money. I was so fucked. My spirit and soul were crushed. Needless to say moving in with my sister and her family for a couple months changed my life. It propelled me to get where I needed to be.

Edmonton has been a lot of growing and progress; baby steps to a brighter future. However, because I moved here under those dire circumstances. Edmonton has always felt like a failure. That my life is a fail. I failed at Montreal. And that, right there, my friends is a lesson I just learned after almost 2 years in Edmonton.

I have felt like a failure in Edmonton because of the hiccup of time I spent in Montreal that crushed my soul.

It is funny how that works.

So while this might sound like a pity party. It is actually a blessing and a break through in my development as a human. I am so focused on why this (Edmonton) was a fail I have failed myself in seeing my success. I feel so profound in my discovery. Like someone has ripped off some blinders.

So how did I get here ?…. Mark Manson.

The Subtle Art of Not Giving a Fuck.

Saturday. I read the entire book. It is fresh in my head so I am trying to implement as many of the lessons as I possible can. But the overarching theme is taking a look  at yourself and your self worth and basically working on yourself to become better for you and then others. I am not going to lie it sucks to realize that you are the root cause of all your problems. It sucks to realize that you are causing your own unhappiness from preconceived notions of yourself. But it makes me smile when I think about all the foolish pressure I have put on myself in the last couple of years because I have limiting beliefs about myself. My mind is fucking blown Friends. All the sudden I am peeling back the layers of destructive self hatred and attempting to lift some pressure from myself and work on my own happiness instead of placing that in other people’s hands and other peoples acceptance of me.

Truth: Sometimes I compare Carol today to Carol back then (not Montreal just happier times) to try and learn from the times in my life when I thought I was my happiest. The thing is. Those were times where I literally and wholeheartedly didn’t give a fuck about what anyone else thought. I never listened I just got on the plane and went. I went to Japan. I went to Korea. I went to China. I went to Chile. I went everywhere. I met amazing people. I didn’t give a flying fuck. I have realized recently I don’t actually want to live like that anymore. I like the stability of not having to figure out where I am going to move every year. I like knowing that my job still exist tomorrow. I don’t need visas and immigration and worrying about whether I can afford a visa run. I don’t have to save for my next flight – unless I truly want to. I think all that time I was searching for security and the only one that can provide that is me.

So today I commit to trying my best to stop that self deprecating behavior. Stop comparing myself to other people doing different things at different phases of their lives. And to just breathe. Because honestly I couldn’t of lived my 20ies any cooler than I did. I didn’t get where I am today but not chancing all those things …testing myself.  Learning that I can build a life where ever I go. Learning that people are selfish assholes and that most advice comes for their own personal experiences, drives, desires and failures. I commit to opening myself up to the possibilities of a wonderful life right here in this city – a place that has been so incredibly good for me, my bank account and my financial well being. I also commit to trying to stop interjecting my suggestions when people what to talk to me. My opinion doesn’t matter much.

So if your are reading this thinking – good gawd – know this – I feel like I am bursting with positivity because I unlocked a secret about my life or I finally figured something out. It is going to be a journey to a brighter Carol. It isn’t my first time pulling myself out of a mess. And I have the power to change everything. It’s a choice.

So Friends – are you trapped in a circle of negative behavior and thoughts? Are you trapped on the hamster wheel of self deprecating behavior and don’t know how to jump off? The sad reality is … it is a choice. Bad things may have happened to you but in the end you chose how you feel about it, how you internalize it or if and when it’s time to let go. You chose to stay. You chose to go. Everything is a choice. So you need to chose to not let past experience affect your current life. And it is hard as fuck. But I am sure as fuck it is going to be worth it.

And with that – all my Love and Self help magic vibes!

Stay dirty,

C

 

When you up & decided your goals aren’t working …

Guys, I was on a March Madness roll – but then I got really, really tired and had to take a break. I was feeling depleted of creative thought and really just wanted to sleep. Last night was night two of go to work, come home, eat a snack and pretty much lose focus on any form of human connection and get lost in a binge watching mess of CraveTV, Netflix and YouTube.

My anxiety got so bad that my back started seizing up, my gums started to burn and I couldn’t do anything but shower, throw on my sweatpants and lounge in my bed. If I am being honest I didn’t even attempt the couches – I was just to fucking tired.

I have been feeling lonely and unmotivated lately.  You know you want to do all these crazy adventurous things but you stand in your own way. Anyway – this reality got me thinking about the choices we make creating our own reality. Because while there are a lot of things that are out of our control – there are plenty of things that we can control.

Everything is a choice.  Sometimes in life we attached stories to justify things that happened. Instead of just being brutally honest about the facts. No excuses. Just reality.


 Lets take a look at this: I chose to attend university, I chose my major. I chose to live my life with reckless abandon. Trust in everyone, and live my life as if I didn’t have 30K of debt hanging over my shoulders. I moved to Korea thinking I would pay my loans off. After I got there, that reality got lost in travel around Asia. After traveling awhile and working contract jobs. I decided I needed to retrain. More loans, More education. More things that weren’t actually my dream. I chose it all.  Now as I settle into adult life – the debt scale is larger, I am killing myself to pay for the last 10 years and I have deemed myself unworthy of friendships, relationships and life because I have gained weight and I am in debt. I project those feelings on other people. I created it all.

 

I am hard on myself. I feel like I am unworthy of a lot of things. I have let other people project their realities on me.  When in fact I am completely capable of something more.  I put a lot of pressure on myself to be debt free because that will make me feel free, I put a lot of pressure on myself to wake up tomorrow lighter, thinner, more vegan. I put a lot of pressure on myself to go on dates and try and meet people – when the reality is I really need to do a better job of loving myself.

Today I decided to think more clearly about my goals, my motivation and my drive. What does success look like? How can I make choices for Edmonton that make me less exhausted, more connected to source, to nature and to humans?

So as we roll out to the end of march – I am re-budgeting, reformulating goals, and getting ready to set myself up for a successful summer. Because Friends, that is the thing with goals, and life … some times you need to reevaluate, stop making excuses and move forward.

How have you combated the harsh realities of adulting?

xoxo,

C

Goal Setting.

This last little while I have been extremely interested in the age old classic of goal setting.  I have been reading articles online, watching You-tubers and all around just asking people how they go about achieving their goals. Most of the goal setting strategies encourage people to write things down. The theory being that once you have a goal to work towards you can actually work towards it. Most of the top gurus of goal setting make implications that sharing these things with friends and family  are actually supposed to help you achieve your goals because you are being reinforced by your friends etc etc …  this all seems good right?!

This last few months I have actually wondered if the opposite is true. I find sometimes when sharing goals with people the truth is – in the moment I share my goal  – I activate it to no longer happen. Say what?!  Yes. This in fact has happened to me.  I read an article in psychology today discussing the reality of sharing your goals. It was saying that sharing your goals can be damaging to goal setting itself.

When you vocalize your goals – you then make yourself think that it has already happened therefore making it less likely to be achieved.

I am absolutely an ambition setter. I am a dreamer. I am a sharer of my wildest dreams of adventure. I am also someone that fails to meet a lot of their goals because once I share my process – the desire dwindles. And I am onto a new adventure, new topic, new life.

Typically what happens is I think I want to do something. So I plot it out in my mind. I plot it out on paper. I plot it out into the reality of what it would look like if I decided to do it. I start working towards those goals.  I see a small amount of success. I get excited. I share my dreams with other people, they get on board. Then I start telling everyone. And then that is when shit goes whack. That is the moment I lose momentum in my goals. Once I have shared the desire – it is like it has already happened. And poof! it’s gone.

There are quite a few things in my life recently that have fallen into this trap. So while I what to be transparent and share my goals – I also want to achieve them. So here we have it – the crossroads of drive to achieve success and social acceptance in goals setting. Do I share my goals with friends and family or not?

I have noticed the less I share the more likely it is to happen. So with that – I am going to run an experiment on goal setting and sharing of knowledge. I have a few goals that I want to achieve this year. I am going to actively not share those goals with people then just work away at them. And see what happens. They are not written down anywhere. This is just an evasive way of planning things out and sharing with you that in fact that it is a thing. My goal setting experiment.

I will run this experiment privately while I also try to publicly achieve my financial goals and we will see which goals yield more success.  If I am being honestly – while I have been paying my minimum payments on loans I am currently behind 500$ of extra AB loan payments and that I am hoping I can make up in April and still achieve my first goal of paying off my Alberta student loans at the end of May.

So with that I wonder – which way do you typically have the most success in goal setting?

Lets discuss – leave me some love down below!

xoxo,

C

 

 

that tiny space life …

You might know this about me but you also might not:

I LOVE TINY HOUSES!

There I said it, I am obsessed with the tiny house movement. I am super interested in alternative housing which is  broad category of tiny houses, micro homes, yurts, RV’s, van life, earth ships and anything else you can really think. I love them. I love the idea of not doing what society tells you and using your creativity to build a dwelling the suits exactly what you, the owner, needs.

This obsession started way back while studying architecture technology.  Most of my submissions for things where alternative structures. I just refused to see housing the way the typical home builder in ALBERTA  did. The infill situation.

Last year around this time I headed South to North Carolina to attend the tiny house conference. I met some amazing tiny house loving people.  Sadly I won’t be attending this year even though it’s in my dream city Portland which is SO MUCH CLOSER to Edmonton AND full of vegans!  It just isn’t in the works because of my commitment to debt reduction. If you haven’t figured it out yet – every thing this year will be about debt reduction.

4 reasons I am in love with alternative housing:

  1. Minimalism; for a lot of years I let my stuff own me. It defined me. It was me. I had boxes of stuff that I carted around home to home never opening. Sometimes living (the stuff living) in other peoples basements. Then in a huge life shift while living in Montreal – I cleaned it all out. When I finally moved from Montreal I had cleaned out past life baggage. It is liberating to get rid of things you don’t need.
  2. Financial impact; I live in a studio apartment. It is a dream. Tiny living without a tiny house. For me living tiny is part of a full package of Carol intentions to achieve a goal but also the less I spend on living, the more I can spend on traveling. The more I can power through my student loans – the more likely the dream of one day no longer have student loans will become a reality. It is a long way to freedom but every bit counts and that included a cheap, small space and spending well below my 30% on housing.
  3. Living Smaller to Live Larger; I will just say it again. The less my monthly experiences are the more I can spend on trips, hair dye, tattoos and debt repayment, retirement saving, blog stuff or what ever else I want. My house doesn’t make me happy. All the other things do.
  4. Environmental Impact; We are actively and knowingly destroying the planet. I care. I want my footprint to be less.  Smaller space, smaller footprint. It is that simple.

Are you an alternative housing lover? Are you into the tiny house movement? How did you get there? What is your drive?

I have a journal from forever ago that I made a label for that says “couch tour of North America” before couchsurfing was a things, before #vanlife was cool- I have for a long time just felt like gypsy was the way to go.  I am a nomad at heart. I think I might always be.

What is your tiny house dream?

xoxo,

C