I have written a new post almost everyday but I am so paralyzed by what is happening to me it is really hard to figure out what is appropriate to post. There is a post about where I am sitting with my MLM project, a post about fear, a post about what to do with your quarantine time, a post about how I am feeling as a flight attendant right now, and another about my emotions and sadness ….. but none of them seemed overly appropriate to post while we are all stressed about money and the lack here of. Moreover – by the time I write and edit – they seem irrelevant.
Like most of us my life is dramatically changing and unfolding by the day. In the last few months I probably would of dealt with this by going out and punched some things at the kickboxing gym – but everything is closed. I haven’t been motivated to work out at home (yet). I feel like I am in a stress eating moment until I realize what is my fate with my company and whether I have a company to go back too.
I am really stressed and watching everything I worked for in the last few years just slip through my fingers. I am grateful I have been on such a massive financial journey – making the impact and blow of such a dramatic financial shift feel like it wont crumple me.
I feel lonely, scared and alone. I acutely realize that I lack companionship and while I want to say this is the time to work on losing weight, and writing up a storm and eating healthy – I am so stressed about what is going to be left in my bank account and what I would do for a job post flying that it is really hard to think about working on other things. I have stocked up on food but not in the way I would normal meal prep and make things – so it feel like my cupboards have food but there is nothing to eat.
I feel like for my own sanity I need to step away from the internet and news. While I posted last week that I would be posting Fridays about my MLM experiment and my journey into making money online; just know – It is coming but I just need to pause while I figure out what it is that is going to happen with my bread and butter job and what the next couple of months might look like.
I will say DO expect a healthy living cleanse begin as soon as I am more in the know about what the next couple of months looks like …. my experiment isn’t dead just holding on barely.
Stay safe, stay home, stay sanitized and eat your fruits and veggies. We are in it together and we will make it through.
All my luv,