Sorry

Do you ever wish you could just apologize? I mean go back to a time and apologize for doing the shitty things that you did while you were a different person? Sometimes I do.

I am sorry I stole money from you. I am sorry I borrowed money and never paid it back. I am sorry I didn’t know how to say no. I am sorry that I didn’t have the money to pay you back when you wanted. I am sorry I didn’t stand up for myself and say no. I am sorry I came on the trip anyway. I am sorry I made it feel like you needed to pay for me. I am sorry that you needed to take care of me. I am sorry I made it easy for you to steal from my wallet. I am sorry you slept with me so you could steal from my wallet thinking I didn’t know. I am sorry I wasn’t the druggie you wanted me to be when you wanted me to be it. I am sorry for lying to you. I am sorry for giving you my power. I am sorry for taking your power. I am sorry that my words made you feel like shit.  I am sorry for talking behind your back. I am sorry you thought I was needy. I am sorry that I made you get too high. I am sorry for making you party again. I am sorry for treating you less than you deserve. I am sorry for not being the person that you need me to be. I am sorry for bitching all the time. I am sorry that I hurt you. I am sorry that I wanted more. I am sorry that I have to many emotions. I am sorry that I cry all the time. I am sorry I broke a promise to you. I am sorry that I lost touch with you. I am sorry that we grew apart. I am sorry that I can’t afford that. I am sorry that I  have super high standards from my friends. I am sorry that I just cant. I am sorry for leaving you. I am sorry we can’t be friends anymore.

But mostly I am sorry that not sorry for being me.

 

 

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