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Sorry

Do you ever wish you could just apologize? I mean go back to a time and apologize for doing the shitty things that you did while you were a different person? Sometimes I do.

I am sorry I stole money from you. I am sorry I borrowed money and never paid it back. I am sorry I didn’t know how to say no. I am sorry that I didn’t have the money to pay you back when you wanted. I am sorry I didn’t stand up for myself and say no. I am sorry I came on the trip anyway. I am sorry I made it feel like you needed to pay for me. I am sorry that you needed to take care of me. I am sorry I made it easy for you to steal from my wallet. I am sorry you slept with me so you could steal from my wallet thinking I didn’t know. I am sorry I wasn’t the druggie you wanted me to be when you wanted me to be it. I am sorry for lying to you. I am sorry for giving you my power. I am sorry for taking your power. I am sorry that my words made you feel like shit.  I am sorry for talking behind your back. I am sorry you thought I was needy. I am sorry that I made you get too high. I am sorry for making you party again. I am sorry for treating you less than you deserve. I am sorry for not being the person that you need me to be. I am sorry for bitching all the time. I am sorry that I hurt you. I am sorry that I wanted more. I am sorry that I have to many emotions. I am sorry that I cry all the time. I am sorry I broke a promise to you. I am sorry that I lost touch with you. I am sorry that we grew apart. I am sorry that I can’t afford that. I am sorry that I  have super high standards from my friends. I am sorry that I just cant. I am sorry for leaving you. I am sorry we can’t be friends anymore.

But mostly I am sorry that not sorry for being me.

 

 

By Carol

Canadian. Flight Attendant. Just trying to see the world, pay off my debt and do creative things while all that is happening. I like coffee and excessive pillows on my bed. Also, umbrella drinks.

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