I have realized the only way to stay sane is to keep busy. Because of the nature of my job I am always on the go – this city, that city, airport, hotel, again .. go, go, go … so to be stuck at home is incredible hard. Plus lets be real as soon as someone tells you you cannot do something all you want to do it do that thing … like go out.
Here are some ideas of things to do while you are staying home on lock-down (aside from Netflix) :
Clean out your motherfucking closet. We all say we are going to do this shit but it is always the last thing on the list. Take the time now to Marie Kondo the shit outta your wardrobe and downsize all the stuff that you don’t feel amazing in.
FIX YOUR CLOTHES!Ya I said it – all those lose button you have been meaning to fix, ripped hems, thrift flips and so on – now is the time – why not get it done. Pulling out the sewing machine and fixing/creating – the world is changing, if you don’t think this is going to be your reality in a massively compromised economy – think again. Do you have a stack of old band shirt or travel shirts or volunteer shirts that you don’t know what to do with – try you hand at making a quilt. Get the pile of things to fix on lock down.
FIX THE STUFF AROUND YOUR HOUSE! Finishing hanging up that art work, fix that door knob, wash down that shelving unit, all those fix it project you have been putting off – now is the time.
Clean out your damn pantry! Legit guys – we all know we all have all sort of random ass shit that never gets eaten. Now is the time to experiment with the weird stuff and clean out the pantry. Do you really need to go to the store OR can you use up something from your home? That being said – if it is non perishable and you are never gonna eat it – why not take things to a food bank (lets be real those food bank are good need all the help they can get when this is done).
Clean out you paper work drawer and file stuff away … Heck do your taxes. I have a file box but I have a bad habit of throwing everything ontop and not actually dealing with stuff. Now is the time – get organized.
Clean out your digital footprint, delete photos, clean out hard drive, delete emails, clean out music library – all that online stuff that is tedious and boring – you have the time … get it done.
Have virtual wine dates and coffee dates on Facetime or Facebook or video chats. This is a great time to catch up with old friends – Skype, Viber, Facetime, Facebook messenger – as long as you have wifi – why not?
Crush your at-home workouts and health routine – reality has sunk in – time to get yourself fit. Why not use quarantine to get your eating on track and you fitness levels up. Take care of your health.
Spend time with your partner – reconnect.
Update your resume, linked in and portfolios just in case you need to find new work.
Hobbies that you don’t have time for … making music, writing, social media …
Start to finally build your online business. There are lots of digital jobs out there – why not time the time and the employment to explore making money online.
What are you doing to keep sane during your quarantine and social isolation?
I have written a new post almost everyday but I am so paralyzed by what is happening to me it is really hard to figure out what is appropriate to post. There is a post about where I am sitting with my MLM project, a post about fear, a post about what to do with your quarantine time, a post about how I am feeling as a flight attendant right now, and another about my emotions and sadness ….. but none of them seemed overly appropriate to post while we are all stressed about money and the lack here of. Moreover – by the time I write and edit – they seem irrelevant.
Like most of us my life is dramatically changing and unfolding by the day. In the last few months I probably would of dealt with this by going out and punched some things at the kickboxing gym – but everything is closed. I haven’t been motivated to work out at home (yet). I feel like I am in a stress eating moment until I realize what is my fate with my company and whether I have a company to go back too.
I am really stressed and watching everything I worked for in the last few years just slip through my fingers. I am grateful I have been on such a massive financial journey – making the impact and blow of such a dramatic financial shift feel like it wont crumple me.
I feel lonely, scared and alone. I acutely realize that I lack companionship and while I want to say this is the time to work on losing weight, and writing up a storm and eating healthy – I am so stressed about what is going to be left in my bank account and what I would do for a job post flying that it is really hard to think about working on other things. I have stocked up on food but not in the way I would normal meal prep and make things – so it feel like my cupboards have food but there is nothing to eat.
I feel like for my own sanity I need to step away from the internet and news. While I posted last week that I would be posting Fridays about my MLM experiment and my journey into making money online; just know – It is coming but I just need to pause while I figure out what it is that is going to happen with my bread and butter job and what the next couple of months might look like.
I will say DO expect a healthy living cleanse begin as soon as I am more in the know about what the next couple of months looks like …. my experiment isn’t dead just holding on barely.
Stay safe, stay home, stay sanitized and eat your fruits and veggies. We are in it together and we will make it through.
Mother of all things holy – the pitch week has been insane.
I decided before I talked to anyone – there would need to be a set of guidelines that I had to follow. Any pitch needed to be well executed and informed; I would feel comfortable with the person I would need to be my mentor. What follows are things I really need to pay attention to before I can join any team of independent distributors and mixed in with that is a bunch of things I am committing to myself as I go forward with the project:
I need to pick an MLM that I am genuinely interested in the products. It must be products that I will honestly use. It is important that it is vegan (for personal and long term business reasons)
I need to commit to reading everything about the company. The good, the bad and the ugly – all the stuff. Take notes. Be informed – don’t make egregious stupid claims about products that aren’t true. (Yesterday while doing online research I listen to a girl talk about how big companies take the fat from road kill and put it in makeup and that is what you are putting on your face – this, friends, is why most people think MLM people are crazy)
Track money in vs money out (keep track as visuals) – everything you spend vs everything you make. It is important to track to see how much you are making vs. losing.
3-6 months. The premise is that I actually work the program. If I am making money perhaps I will continue on – Who knows where this will take me?!
Find a thriving supportive upline that can help me build my “business” – I have always struggled when women have called their independent consultant business’ as there “own company” – the culture of preying on women as weak and trying to show them that success is growth is scary. But i’ll dive into that later.
I will commit to regular Friday posts to update how the project is going – how dealing with the public as a person that works for an MLM is going. Do I feel like I am putting a strain on personal relationships?
Have a ‘why’ – why did I pick this particular company. What was the decision-making process? Why do you think their products are good?
Exit clause – can you bail? If after 3 months you are just spending money. Can you bail?
Actually test the products. Use them. Decide for yourself. Things that might benefit you.
With all the above in mind ….. Asking anyone that is actively trying to make money in an Multi Level Marketing company to pitch me their best pitch opened up a world of crazy that I didn’t really realize was going to evoke so many opinions and so much attitude. It has been an exhausting few days to say the least.
Multi-level marketing (MLM), also called pyramid selling, network marketing, and referral marketing, is a marketing strategy for the sale of products or services where the revenue of the MLM company is derived from a non-salaried workforce selling the company’s products/services, while the earnings of the participants are derived from a pyramid-shaped or binary compensation commission system. – Wikipedia
Ladies have been coming at me. People I haven’t ever talked to online have come out of the woodwork. I learned that some of you guys love these companies and some of you fucking hate them. There have been some VERY strong opinions. It is pretty damn interesting the amount of ‘super for’ or ‘super against’ opinions that are circling around the web.
I have been curious about this kind of money making for some time. I have always inherently thought it was wrong. And I am not so certain I changed that opinion but I realized while talking to people that: a lot of women don’t love the products they are trying to push, a lot of women are angry that other women haven’t changed their products – their everyday routine to support their multi level marketing business. Women are angry that other women didn’t sign up to be a part of their business – even if the products are not aligned to then, their ethics or even if the products are possibly out of their price range. There are some women that have drank in so much of the culture they have failed to see anything aside from you not purchasing from them makes you a bad person. Friends, this is just week one.
Before I got to far on this journey I really needed to know so many things but most important to me:
What are the startup costs? What is my monthly and yearly financial contribution? Can I opt out after 3 months or six months? Can I get out if I need to?
As someone who has spent a lot of time trying to dig themselves out of a financial hole the last thing I want is to get myself on the hook for something financially that I can’t really afford. I don’t want to commit to a company for a year of spending hordes of money that I can’t get back.
So I let people pitch me in any way they wanted to – I had Amway, Young Living, Valentus, Arbonne … some were good – some where bloody awful.
Stay tuned for next Friday when we talk about which company I am choosing to get involved with and …
In the meantime – are you or have you been part of any MLM? I would love to hear from you about your experience? Please comment below what you think about it – are you making money? Why did you get involved?
Just the other day I was invited over to my friends house. A girl I haven’t seen in almost a year. 20 mins into our conversation she started talking about this new thing she was involved in and I realized that this person had no interest in really seeing me but more of an interest in trying to get me to sign up for her multi level marketing scheme (this time it was AMWAY).
If I am being honest – I felt kind of violated. I listen to the pitch and I said that I was actually trying to be better at supporting my friends with there “business” but in my head I was truly thinking – straight up not buying product I don’t want to support a business for a friend that has barely talked to me in a year.
Fast forward a few days later and I started thinking about the actual functionality of MLMs and if people can really make money. Back in December when I quit my second job I had thought that I might make a go of trying to sell Beach Body. I was already a Coach – which I signed up for so I could get a discount but then proceeded to spend more on coaching that I did on buying products. But regardless it got me wondering if I did what they told me to do, had a strong upline and if I followed their protocol would I, in fact, be able to make money in an MLM venture.
In my currently career as a flight attendant I come across pretty much everyone that has a side gig. If I am being truly honest – flight attendant money isn’t great. This lends well to a lot of women working in the multi level marketing (MLM) industry. There are people selling Beadchbody packages, Young Living Essential Oils, Roden & Fields, Scentsy and so on. I am not going to lie – I have been super interested in making some ‘easy’ cash in the digital nomad style of work and MLMs are so damn popular.
However, and this is HUGE – there are very few people I know that make money in MLMs.
Most people sign up and then fail to push the products – but as any true MLM upline will tell you – read your positive affirmation self help books daily and be consistent. Reach out to new people everyday and be consistent. Talk about it to your family and friends and be consistent. And eventually, eventually things will grow.
I will be documenting my journey once I decide which MLM I want to try out. I am currently looking for a thriving and positive upline that will be super supportive in starting to grow a “business”. Someone who understands I will be documenting the process and who actually makes money on their business.
I am looking for products that I will actually like and want to use – the options are endless I suppose.
If you are < that > upline and think I might be interested in your product – pitch me your best stuff (must be in Canada).
It was only a few nights ago that I was in a random taco bar in Huatulco, Mexico with my crew. Sometimes flying is like having 2 Dads and some step siblings all crammed together trying to make group decisions. Every now and again you get a group of people that just kind of fit and when you find them – you just need to go with it.
Our little road family was pretty cute. We banded together for our 48 hours in Mexico – on a mission to experience some things, be out in the sun and remember why working as aircrew can be a super amazing job.
Huatulco is in the Oaxaca region of Mexico. Oaxaca is found on the Pacific side just where the country does a geographical turn on the map and the continent starts to get more narrow. The only reason I actually know where Oaxaca is located is from my younger years as a Barista. I got a job at a Second Cup when I first moved to Calgary some 20 odd years ago. Second Cup was all about coffee but also learning about coffee kinda stuff and being knowledgeable about random things like growing regions and flavors in the soil. Oaxaca is absolutely a coffee growing region in Mexico and they make fine, fine coffee.
Anyway, after a gong-show of a flight down to Mexico I was feeling pretty spent. In fact – I actually had to take refuge up in the flight deck for a little 15 min break in the last quarter of the flight. I had a chat with the guys about how I thought I might actually bail on the crew for some alone time.
But as every good crew member knows – those decisions can’t be made till you are in your hotel room, out of your uniform and back in the world of normalcy -As soon as I was changed and breathing in that humid Mexican air I was ready for some Dos Equis.
It was that first night – in a little local taco shop just a half block from the square in La Crucecita that I realized that the 6th degree of separation bullshit was actually a thing. I was telling the crew that I had lived on the East Coast of Canada and that I went to university out there. I wasn’t wearing my x-ring so when I mentioned I went to university in Antigonish the Captain leaned over to check my hand – what do you know; The Captain on my crew just happened to go to the same University as me.
Like the typical people from the East Side we went off on a tangent to figure out if we had any commonalities and there you have it- he just so happened to be friends with a professor I held dear to my heart.
It is crazy to me that everything sort of leads back to that place for me. That place that tried me so much. The place that changed me. The place that took my life in a very different direction. The place where I understood my childhood but hated it all at the same time. The place that I didn’t realize kind of unraveled me until I painstakingly put myself back together some 10 years later. You get so connected to your own story that it becomes hard to rewrite it. Figuring out a new path, changing your identity, your story – it’s hard work. I have become fixated on trying to figure out who I truly am – understanding, growing. Can I see through that time and that darkness or will I forever be cloaked with that sadness that leaves so much hollowness inside? Are we supposed to spend our entire life searching? I digress.
Dinner in the Taco bar led to morning plans to spend the following day together. We all met for breakfast and sat in the square in Santa Cruz having Oaxacan coffee and chiliqilies. I opted for a vegetarian version and when those barely cooked eggs showed up on top of my food I wanted to barf. I guess I am more vegan than I thought. The iced coffee was divine though. After breakfast we headed down to the beach to find a boat for hire. That is when we got linked up with Jamie – our boat guy – for barely $40 CND each we had hired out a private boat named Johanna II for the day to do some bay hopping, see some secluded beaches, snorkel and of course day drink.
We headed back to the hotel to grab our gear while Jamie iced our beer and tequila. We set out on a boat on the Pacific Ocean to explore this tiny area in Mexico. Admittedly I felt like the outsider of the group. But even though I was feeling slightly odd after a couple of drinks none of that stuff mattered. I had a great time drinking tequila and beer and plunging off the side of the boat into the crystal clear waters. I barely thought about the yellow bellied poisonous snakes at all.
My previous experiences with Mexico have been in Cancun and Puerto Vallarta. Busy party central districts – Huatulco felt nothing like this. I swear to you Huatulco is where all the old hippies go -It might be because we were in the town of Santa Cruz which is part of the Huatulco region and not at a resort. It might be because Huatulco is pretty underdeveloped; you can see where they have made plenty of attempts but never actually finished construction on something – but this is a super chilled out area full of people just wanting to be in Mexico in a different capacity. You can see there are all sorts of great resort type projects on the go that have just been left abandoned. It is sad to see but at the same time it makes this area significantly less busy, less people around. It actually feels like a more authentic type of Mexico – whatever the hell that means.
Getting up on morning two we had about three quarters of the day to just be. We headed down for a crew breakfast at Itoo – which if you are in town is a must. Fresh squeezed juices, and a menu of authentic Mexican food kinda written in English if you need that sort of thing. We sat around and chatted and made a collective decision for some beach time.
The beach that was linked with our hotel on the Bahia de Santa Cruz wasn’t the prettiest I saw in my 48 hours. But for some last minute sunshine and some time for reading it did the trick. I tapped out early to head back to my room to mentally prepare for my flight home. Maybe it was the full moon energy but things have been feeling off and I am definitely one that needs a lot of alone time. Sometimes to much. But preparing for work takes time, mental preparation and sometimes meditation.
Landing back in Calgary makes the little bubble pop. Your little group just disperses and you go back to your normal life and normal things and cold weather. It’s like it never happened. It’s a crazy life how you weave through people and connections and experiences and end up exactly where you were – some of you cross paths again but it’s never in the same circumstances, people or places. You can’t relive a moment or time – you just carry on with the good parts.
I have been a bullet journaling mad woman trying to plan everything out in my life – from things I want to write about to what I actually want to achieve. Maybe I am just taking a bit of a goals reset I am not sure, but this is the list of the top 5 that have been on my mind lately:
How can I make an extra 10K this year to put on my Federal student Loan so I can be debt free by January 2021? As the #debtfreecommunity grows and Dave Ramsey becomes a superstar there is more and more clutter on social media space about becoming debt free. I paid off a huge amount of debt in January of 2020 and I tell you – it is so fucking liberating. I feel like a part of me got my life back. Now I have the momentum I want to just crush out the last 30k. #justwatchme
It is probably because I have been watching so many vanlifers on Youtube but I really, really want to backpack around Mexico. It seems like a well traveled spot for my first solo trip in a super-duper long time. So, I have been gathering information for a bit of what I am temporarily calling ‘Yucatan Adventure: a Mexican Backpacking Trip for your 40ies’. I have got some holidays coming up – and heck, it is good to just think about going somewhere even if it doesn’t happen. I have basically been scared to dramatically live for some time now and I need to baby step into a solo trip that gets me out there, ready to explore and to gain my confidence back.
I have all the vegan health books (Starch Solution, McDougall, Eat to Live, How Not to Die) – I have a gymvnt membership, a 30 min hit membership, BeachBody on Demand and WW – goodness I can make weight loss happen in 2020 (she types while eating seven eleven taquitos) Now what I really need to do it make healthy choices 90% the time so the number goes down on the scale. What is the best way to track my calories in vs calories out – unclear? Obviously taking suggestions. I have become increasingly aware of my poor eating habits and I need to be super aware of the food that I put in my mouth and my workouts. Sometimes I am just so blissfully unaware of the calories in very unhealthy vegan food.
I need a style makeover, or I just need more clothes or need the weight to come off faster so more of my clothes fit me. But also, I have become a different person and I think I need a slightly different look. Maybe I just finally want to look my age or I have hit and actually 40 life crisis – I feel like I need a signature look. I need to start dressing for the success that I want to achieve. Because sometimes you just need to look the part.
The existential question – what do I want out of life? And is what I am doing enough? If I could have every day be the exactly perfect day what would it look like? Would I own a vegan cafe? Would I be a professional artist? Would I be married? Would I have kids? What is it that I am actually after in life?
I know – the mind can be a powerful took for manifesting greatness, you need to use it wisely. Think about things you want to manifest. So Friends, what kinds of greatness are you bring into this life?
Tell me below what is occupying your brain space in the early part of 2020?
Let me paint the picture for you: It is about 430pm on a Monday – I am sitting in my car – a 2013 FIAT 500 2 door, hatchback – in Nose Hill Park in Calgary, overlooking the city – it is a pretty nice fall day. I am anxious as fuck. I woke up this morning feeling like I wanted to write or create or something like that, mostly I just felt like I needed to get outta the house. It is hard for me to be in my own home (to be clear by own home I mean the room I rent in Calgary that is literally just a room rental). I left my house twice with my laptop thinking I wanted to find a café to drink a tea and finish a post I was writing about getting my finances in order. But I left both of those places feeling … off. And now, strangely enough, here I am, parked in my car with a beautiful view – with my laptop, writing in my car.
I feel suffocated.
I feel so suffocated that I need to roll down my window in a dusty wind situation.
I have been feeling suffocated a lot lately. I am feeling that – plus unsure and not knowing. I feel lonely. I feel sad. I am eating my feelings one bag of NoName Sour Cream & Onion chips at a time. I am literally filling my body with swill. Every time I look in the mirror I make a comment in my head about my weight and how I look. I feel gross. It is like I stopped caring but I haven’t – like I have given up but I haven’t … I dunno what is going on in my head but here I am sitting in my car looking at the changing fall leaves feeling like something big is about to happen. I can feel it.
You know for a long time in life – I really used to think there was no harm in believing you were better than you were. Growth, you know. But as I approach my 40th year around the sun I think it might be time that I take a different approach. Less dreaming, more reality. One time someone asked me if I still believed I was going to have a charmed life – he knew his life would be mediocre – at the time I didn’t realize that I was the very thing I hated. I believed I was better than I was, entitled to more than I am and was so gawd damn obtuse about it I didn’t know I was thinking it.
The winds of change have arrived.
The thing I am learning all the time is to feel less guilt and feel less shame and learn to feel more happiness, freedom and strength. I am a master of self help reading but not a master of self help doing.
I used to be an all-in kinda lady. Like if I was going out and getting fucked up – I was coming home the most fucked up, if I was getting high I was getting so gawd damn high I couldn’t keep my eyes open – like the kind of high that people worried about you (Gawd I miss that). There was no just have one beer or two. It was all or nothing. Then I spent a long time being a nothing gal. Recently I have decided I want to be a half in Gal. Somewhere along the way t become a better human I forgot that humans need to have fun. Then I realized I forgot what fun was like. I realized that I have become a hermit.
Anyway, sitting in my car I realized how great it would to actually go after one of my big dreams. for example – I have wanted to rebuild the interior of a van to live and work in. I have been dreaming of the tiny living for sometime. Instead of committing to a sprinter van and a permanent van home – maybe I can commit to a caravan and weekend warrioring. See what I am getting at – I set my bar to high and then get sad when I don’t achieve it.
I have an end of year move thought lingering in my head, a huge debt repayment happening and then things will begin to shift. I am ready.
Self reflection, Friends, it is a part of growth. It is needed. In whatever strange way to let it happen. For me, today, it is sitting in my car on the top of a hill, writing out my feelings. Thanks for coming along of the journey.
Where are you at in your goals for 2019? Are you making things happen??